Omc. Does that happen to you? That your muse just suddenly comes that you type so much as if you’re possessed by an armless Sadako who needs a living substitute to vent her wrath.
Then it just suddenly goes away like a… erm ghost? (I meant to type wind but it’s as cliched as Gone with the wind and i just think a ghost gives more… oomph?)
(Okay i was thinking “shiver factor” instead of “oomph” because i guess oomph generally carries positivity? But i dunno why i typed that…)
(Okay enough. *slaps self*)
Omc when was the last time i ever emo’ed? Ok, except that Futon Jinx incident (which made me such a bitter, bitter apple i absolutely detest). I guess i subconsciously disallowed myself to publicly display emoness.
Why am i being so mean to myself!!!
I re and re and re-read my past entries, some from my imaginary blog in seach for my true self altercheesego(es?). I’ve been so cheezophrenic i am not even conscious of which part of me is typing npw. See, she even makes typo, which some part of me normally doesn’t.
Cheesh.
Anyway, I realized that I was so mean! I mean, i was blatantly mean to people i disliked and blogged like i really meant it. What, have i demeaned myself (wait… that sounds wrong)? Erm what i mean is why am i so not consciously mean now when i, in fact, don’t mean to be not mean when fighting for what really means a lot to me.
Okay, i don’t mean to confuse you but oh well, if you know what i mean.
I discovered an entry written one and a half years ago (sorry not available on Cheeserland).
The layout is pink. But i depinked it to avoid confusion with my actual layout (happy anot? My blog is pink again! Yay!).
And i think it’s the best post i’ve ever written.
I’m such a fool for not being able to be any more articulate.
September 17th, 2007 at 1:40 pm
Hmm Kelvin sounds like… bad guy.
I like pink layout again^^
Go on and fight any time you like cheesie… your real feeling on blog is interesting.
Cheesie… aja aja fighting!
September 17th, 2007 at 1:46 pm
Joe omg. Where have you been.
September 17th, 2007 at 2:07 pm
Ohh. I was so used to seeing the pink last time, it looked weird when u had that iTalk blue layout. Now it’s back to pink, and it looks weird to me cos it’s not italky anymore. lol =_=
September 17th, 2007 at 2:10 pm
pink and cheese yellow r really suitable for you~ ^^
i wrote something like this in my blog too….
but i wrote “my name is xxx” (:
September 17th, 2007 at 2:18 pm
Welll…its those times….
When gurls gets moody…
But then..i think guys too….
Anyway..we lurve reading ur blog…
No matter what~~!!
* winks *
September 17th, 2007 at 2:26 pm
*high five*
i have a ‘i hate kevvy’ one somewhere…………..
LOL
September 17th, 2007 at 2:40 pm
wo…wo………..easy now cheesie…..easy………..
its ok to be emo sometimes….in fact i think its healthy.
September 17th, 2007 at 3:32 pm
the best post i have ever seen too
wukakakka
September 17th, 2007 at 8:36 pm
who’s kelvin?
September 17th, 2007 at 10:26 pm
me hate kelvin too…
September 17th, 2007 at 10:29 pm
kelvin clein
September 18th, 2007 at 12:30 am
everyone loves kelvin
September 18th, 2007 at 8:18 am
kelvin? Misha’s uncle also Kelvin .. hehehe . but he is in canada
happy tuesday to you jiejie cheesie!
September 18th, 2007 at 10:21 am
They say, “To err is human”… I guess to muse is blogging, right?… I sensed a tinge of salt in this current posting… My dear Cheesie, our hearts are to be filled with all the many splendour feelings in life - don’t waste it on ‘Hate’… Let hate come and go, and our world will be a more wonderful place to be in… (Hmm… you got me in the ‘muse mode’ now)
September 18th, 2007 at 12:08 pm
who’s kelvin?
September 18th, 2007 at 12:30 pm
So easy to say “don’t hate. make love not war”. Until you have reason to feel that feeling of hating someone or hating yourself. Then, you can know it truly and see, it’s not easy to avoid it. But I do agree, got to control it, and it does waste your life if you let it control it.
September 18th, 2007 at 3:35 pm
hi pretty…i read your older entries and really felt heartache.but they are past tense right???hope u are leading a happy life now.
cheers
September 18th, 2007 at 4:19 pm
Cheese me Cheesie !
September 18th, 2007 at 5:03 pm
lol? that was unexpected
September 18th, 2007 at 6:16 pm
this kelvin must be either a prince charming or a jerk…hmm…
September 18th, 2007 at 9:23 pm
ok, not sure what do you meant in this entry… maybe a summary in less than 10 words? haha
September 19th, 2007 at 12:40 am
kelvin? hmmmm……. *scratch head*
September 19th, 2007 at 12:43 am
poor kelvin.
September 19th, 2007 at 12:49 am
It’s okay cheesie. We all still love you. Being emo isnt always bad.
Love,
Emo Kid
September 19th, 2007 at 6:17 pm
who is kelvin-the guy that inspired u the write the best post?