This whole thing is an elaborated joke.
Suddenly i have this nauseating feeling all over again. Seriously. Wow. Anymore? cuz i feel like i can take anything now. tell me my great grandmother was an amoeba and i’ll probably think it makes a lot of sense.
God my life is so full of drama. why liddat one? now that the whole plan is disrupted, i dont quite know what to expect out of this.
It didnt affect me much. or maybe it hasn’t hit me yet. he said he will call me later for confirmation. i hate his work.
I was happy with my PS work. Then went out for a nice dinner. Then got back home. Then he called. He said really cannot make it.
I said okay.
Part of me felt strangely relieved. Very very strange. I was like. that horrible feeling in my stomach emerged again. and got stuck on my chest. couldn’t breathe. but in a strange way it was relieving.
Suddenly i thought. i dont have to spend that 4k. and that few hundred bucks on Shinkansen. And what turf the exchange rate is reaching 4.0 it is ridiculous. and i dont have to ask help from everyone i think i was being such an annoying helpless whiney desperado for the past few days. dont need to think hard for connections to pull strings. dont have to worry about letter not getting here on time. dont have to worry about visa application kena declined (and if i bought the tic already i would be double turfed). dont have to worry about it not happening. because it is not.
Wow. that’s quite a lot of worries i had, I just realized.
I feel calm. Blessing in disguise, i think to myself. i feel strangely calm. If any consolation we would be spending Christmas together. And i secretly feel comforted by the thought of it.
But then very very little part of me just… sank.
We had visions of us walking by the river in Kyoto (but later i heard the nice place is only open in summer). Going to see yakei in Osaka (maybe drink a bit because it is very very, VERY cold). And eat pork ramen. And eat fugu (! We will die together. Very romantic). And eat Mos Burger (!!!). And steal strawberries by the roadside in Nara (he said he does that all the time). And go to see Capsule’s performance in Osaka on 26th. He said he wanted to buy the ticket to surprise me because he knows i love them.
I couldn’t wait.
But it is not happening.
I remembered having those visions too when I was with Kelvin back then. And it just didn’t happen. When you chase something too hard it just runs away.
I don’t quite know how i should feel right now but i guess i am okay. At least i am still going to Tokyo. Just he will be in Malaysia instead. The irony is overwhelming.
Thanks everyone for help anyway. Really much appreciated.
We’ll be around…everyone.
*pat pat pat*
Cheer up! It’s okae (: One year comes and goes really quickly, there’s still Christmas the following year (:
I can feel your dissapointment though I have always always spent Christmas in Msia 🙂
bunny wabbit will be with u!
Gin: i collect after my Trip k? Xmas present for myself. Take good care of them!
Can understand the chasing too hard but hey Xmas may still be in Malaysia but it is still an Xmas with TK 🙂 Who, knows..this time next year you may just be in Japan with TK 🙂
Hey, cheer up!
Chrismas in Malaysia is not as bad as you think? Well sure, although it lacks the romantic feel in Japan but hey, there maybe some other japanese girl sulking because she could not celebrate chrismas in Malaysia 😛
I begged my mom to changed my flight from 29th to 23rd so that I could celebrate chrismas with my friends back in Malaysia rather than spending chrismas in Sydney or Melbourne because there is nothing like home 🙂
I’m sure your friends will have something planned out for you too! Looking forward to your blog post about chrismas 🙂
its ok..this xmas i oso celebrate in Sabah nia..btw im in KL.. well..xmas with coconuts(to me sabah’s coconuts are the best)? not bad at all.. hohoho..
all of us aso at m’sia LOL?
together wif u =D!!!
yea, always take a step backwards…you’ll see the sky wider.
Well we’re here to cheer you up. One redeemable voucher. Extended to 30 days validity, just for you. 😉
x’mas eve in m’sia is always very nice!
come melaka and visit the christmas village- portugese settlement where people really decor their houses like…..
i hope you enjoy your christmas in malaysia and that next year you’d be able to go japan for real during christmas 🙂
i’m coming to Kl~~! 🙂 any suggestions on must-go places?
Connection to cheeserland.com is a go @ 9:45 am.
Hmm.. Maybe can use the money for more happening things in Malaysia 🙂
u can come to london to visit oli or me? hhahhahha
i will bring u to Europe. mbe ! 😛
curious…who’s TK?cheer up cheesie.. 🙂
Dearie, how ironic. Here I am, wishing against hope that I could be in Malaysia for Xmas. 🙁 This will be my first Xmas without my family, and just thinking about it makes me wanna cry. 🙁 You have Cheddie and yr mom, and many many friends around. Hugs.
hugs. yer preparing for a travel trip takes so much time/money and so much of uncertainty. and u never know what will happen this time next year. but cheer up! i’m sure something will work out in the end =) and we will always be in the cyberworld wib u =p
hahahah omg oklah to make u feel bettteeerr,
it wont be a white christmas even if u spend it in japan! cuz cuz cuz i doubt itd snow in dec 😛
Kei: it snowed a little in Nara today.
just want to say congrats for being nufnang blogger of the month….hehehe
Cheer up girl :3 You will have another chance next time. Christmas is just around the corner do you decorate your house?
omg it snowed in nara??? ehhh so unfair there’s no snow in tokyo 🙁 🙁 argh everyone’s saying gotta wait till jan/feb.
Let’s go KY’s Christmas Eve’s party if he’s holding any this year lol.
of course the x’mas eve party is ON!
KY got inv ma? I bring some wensleydale…. 😀