July 9, 2009 in Senti-Emmental

written July 6th, 2009

what i said about how things decide to take a drastic turn just when you expect them to head the way you want them to.

i almost booked a flight back to KL. that was what happened. (edit: i actually booked  a flight home. That was what actually happened.)

it was like Jenga. you build it up just so it could fall apart.

you pull one out. i pull one out. you pull another one out. and i pull another one out. until it is full of holes all over.

so you pull one out safely and then feel relieved to leave the shit up to everyone else to screw it up, it goes one big round and comes back to you. now it is your turn to screw it all up.

it’s amazing, this bloody Jenga thing. just when you think it is impossible anymore, that this is the last straw (or block, whatever) that will make everything collapse, you manage to pull one out. and another one. and another one. an another one. it went on about like a hundred million times. there will always be another last straw (or block, whatever, really).


no matter how much you try to be careful and cautious and gentle with it, it will come all tumbling down in the end. which is kind of the whole point of why you have built it in the first place. it is ironic really.

and i knew that was the last one to pull out.

for sure.

34 responses to “Jenga”

  1. Adrianne says:

    Hey babe! What’s with the dispirited postings of late? Hope you’re doing well. Cheer up! It’ll all be good soon 🙂

  2. maRCus says:

    heys pretty.. its been awhile since i last heard tht name Jenga.. like jeng jeng jeng.. Gaaah! LOL

    u pretty lil thing! XD

  3. blekming says:

    hugs!!! I hope you’ll feel better!! Well, the positive way to look at the Jenga game is that you can build up the blocks again. =) Chin up, babe!

  4. Tey Cindy says:

    cheer up ring! u still have ching~ hahaha…

  5. Butter cake says:

    Everything will be fine, dear. There’s always rainbow after rain. 🙂 cheer up ^^

  6. jassie says:

    have been a silent reader all the while, but i guess you need a shoulder and some positivity. hughug. i know things have not been easy suddenly, but i am sure you would be able to pick yrself up and do the right thing.

    takecare girl and i hope the entries would be filled with happiness soon

  7. Tan Yee Hou says:

    *hearts cheese*

    Don’t emo : (

  8. minty says:

    *hug* *hug* you sound pretty down but i must say, that was a very good post. good use of Jenga to reflect your feelings.

    i hope you feel better soon.

  9. FallenGod says:

    come on cheese cake!!! u cant give up… japan men r pervs anyways

    stick with good ol dyed hair bengs from Msia

  10. Reiko says:

    Time will cure and ease the pain in your heart…
    Even though most of the time you feel heart ache, do remember that you’ll always have us supporting you!
    Life wasn’t that bad right!? 😉

  11. Calvin says:

    sounds like your relationship is kind of rocky now. Sometimes you have to kiss a few frogs to find a prince.

  12. Calypso says:

    Mope all you want now but get back on your feet soon!!!

  13. Porkie says:

    Here if you need me k…always 🙂

  14. renaye says:

    hope everything is alright by the time u read my msg.

  15. Cheryl C. says:

    cheer up darling… I know how difficult it is to end a relationship when you still have feelings for that someone. Time will cure your heart. Remember the email i sent you when i was feeling so low about my past relationship, i’ve tried very hard to move on after your reply and you can do it too cause i think you’re such a strong and positive person 🙂

  16. KY says:

    interesting analogy, avoiding the whole jenga game would be ideal, but sometimes it is extremely difficult to do. *hugs*

  17. superwilson says:

    take care… if the jenga falls, buy a new one…

  18. mint says:

    you’re gonna be just fine…i’m sure.

  19. me says:

    got durians 🙂 …wan to eat?

  20. asstha says:

    awww… sweeets… no matter what… remember after it’s fallen you get to rebuild again… like the saying, wat goes up must come down… likewise, wen u’ve hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up, up, up… *hugs* 🙄

  21. portia says:

    hey hope things turn around for you soon!
    i’ve always liked this quotes:

    “life may not be always a party…but while we are here we should dance!”
    “dont make someone your everything because when they are gone, you have nothing”

    …and the best: “jump in puddles!” 🙂

    take care

  22. johnny says:

    dun emo le Rin.
    do cheer up.

  23. jessie says:

    Hey cheesie..

    been a while since i posted any comments…
    cheer up okay!!

  24. Calvin W says:

    cheer up girl,
    for everything happens for a reason,
    every cloud has a silver lining,
    everything that has a beginning has an end,
    every end marks a new beginning …

    cheers 🙂

  25. Alison says:

    i understand how you feel,i been through the whole jenga thing myself *huggies* i hope you would feel better soon from the bottom of my heart.

  26. xueni says:

    is there anything wrong? ):
    cheerios, girl.

  27. David says:


    Where more than one person is involved one has less control than we imagine.

    You can only control your own life. You know that you are beautiful person.

    Indeed you are God’s work of art!

    As are all of humankind.


  28. Kerwin says:

    Aww… Sometimes, bad things just happen. And it sucks.
    I hope you will get better soon.
    Your readers here loves you.

  29. eeleeng says:

    it sure is not easy building the blocks, i have been building mine for a year now and each time it falls, somehow we managed to rebuild. today he told me no more, he had enough. i guess in a way things happen for a reason. we just dont know it yet. i’m not gonna ask u to cheer up because i know its almost impossible. but do know that everything will turn out fine in the end…

  30. clement says:

    hey rin, cheers… i can sense something from this post… anyway…cheers..coz life is short…

  31. adrian says:

    cheeser, philosophical with an implicit meaning? often times we build things up only for others to tear it down. there are times when we are the destructive force. jenga is a game, in order to win – someone has to lose. that someone is the one who pulls the last block before the structure tumbles. the game fosters trust as the core value. surround yourself with those you trust and more often than not, your structure will remain sturdy and intact

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