I was feeling a little like the old man who hung himself in Shawshank Redemption. I was starting to wonder if i actually remember how to handle a mouse and how to reply to an sms (huh, handphone? what handphone?) properly.
The emotions I was having were so mixed up it makes rojak sound like the most orderly thing ever. I was feeling sooo… cheesinomous (adj. Okay. I actually don’t know what it means but that’s is exactly what it means. Just a word i coined to express the inexplicable nature of something… uhm, hard to explain. Please jot the new vocab down in your exercise book, thank you very much).
I’ve been thinking what to blog actually. Definitely not something sensitive. Most definitely not something insensitive. Cheesus Crust. If i really do blog about everything that has happened and what i have felt during the cheesinomous 54 days, i can guarantee your mouse is going to die a horrible death of exhaustion due to excessive scrolling.
Give me a couple of days (longer than that, maybe, connection sucks) to watch the video clips (isn’t that ironic? we’re what’s in the show yet we’re the last to know what they actually show in the alternate reality) and let me see what kind of person i actually am, THEN i will decide if i want to write about anything at all.
Okay. Some friends have suggested I should have self-defended for any sort of rumors and baseless accusations that people have thrown callously at me. But i think for now thats the last thing i want to do. You see, you explain something, they counter back, and they expect you to bite their flame bait so that it may satisfy their desire for senseless sniping. If you don’t, they think you admit defeat. And if you do, they will come up something else for you to stress yourself over.
You don’t find it tiring meh? I do lo.
One thing though.
Regarding comment moderation. Please. I hope you actually watched enough episodes to realize that there was no cheesing internet in the house. How could you just so impetuously come to the conclusion that *i* was the one who deleted the comments. It’s blatantly obvious that for the past whole month, i had nocheesingideawhatsoever what was happening on my own blog. Even if i did have 5 minutes online i wouldn’t spend it deleting your comments. Sorry for the shocking revelation of the day. Undoubtedly it could have been done more tastefully and i apologize for not taking it into consideration before i joined the show. But please, stop scolding ME for deleting your comments.
Sekian terima kasih.
Sigh. I’m so tired. I’m dying to blog about something that actually makes me happy.
There.
I was happy.
I was so happy.
I was so very very happy.
Reminiscing it makes me happy already. 
April 26th, 2008 at 2:36 am
First?
April 26th, 2008 at 2:38 am
I’m happy too,that u r back!
April 26th, 2008 at 2:58 am
Welcome come back! Great to have cheesie back… on the blog…
April 26th, 2008 at 3:15 am
I think you were robbed. How do you know they didn’t fiddle with the votes? Anyway, take care and get back the the cheese.
April 26th, 2008 at 3:39 am
hey hey hey . everything happens for a reason, good or bad, it’s still experience.
especially yours. 
smile always. it’s always the antidote.
April 26th, 2008 at 3:46 am
Cheesie, may I know which tour bus is that you were on in London?
p/s: welcome back =D
Cheesie: THE BIG BUS TOUR!!!
April 26th, 2008 at 3:47 am
Wow, it’s been 54 days? No wonder I’m missing my calcium
I’m sorry you got eliminated, but I’m glad you’re back!
April 26th, 2008 at 4:10 am
Yeah. Cheesie is back with more cheesilicious post.
April 26th, 2008 at 4:24 am
I see the london eye! wowow i miss london so much too… thinking of going there for my next holiday!
Cheesie: Let’s.
April 26th, 2008 at 4:28 am
Cheesie , which part of UK have u been before beside the trip to London ?
Welcome back ! Always support you !
Cheesie: Bristol and Cheddar. Super awesome!
April 26th, 2008 at 4:43 am
^___________^
April 26th, 2008 at 4:53 am
Glad you’re out, you need to be online! And see you at the finale
April 26th, 2008 at 5:44 am
You’re the best cheese ever in the Cheeseniverse!
April 26th, 2008 at 5:58 am
Hooray! You’re back!
April 26th, 2008 at 6:02 am
welcome back Cheesie, Queen of all cheeses !
April 26th, 2008 at 6:18 am
welcome cheesie back to cheeserland
April 26th, 2008 at 6:22 am
A happy person looks like a happy Cheesie!
April 26th, 2008 at 7:04 am
El Oh El Ringo, you have a funky hairdo in the 2nd picture and you look so happily cute too.
April 26th, 2008 at 8:39 am
and now u r sad and miserable =(
joining the show might have been a mistake huh?
poor thing…
but people will forget about this matter after awhile.
not to worry
April 26th, 2008 at 9:47 am
since you went away, a lot of places has cultivated a great quantitles of sour grapes!…those sour grapes taste terrriible! i hope the sour grapes have turn abit sweetened by now.
April 26th, 2008 at 10:05 am
There is always bad and good comments for everything we do.
So, I think that just put all these things aside and do what you think it is best for you.
And welcome back! Yay! I have blog to visit now!
April 26th, 2008 at 10:46 am
there’s no need for you to explain further about wat’s been happening.. i believe.. we all here tat always in ur blog knows tat it wasn’t you tat deleted those comment n stuff.. so.. i hope u manage to c the birthday card thingy and some other sweet nice stuff that been happening all this while when you away..
so.. will be looking further for your entry.. just put the mdg stuff away.. it doesn’t really matter anymore…
cheer up~~
April 26th, 2008 at 10:55 am
there’s nothing left for me to comment about. Cause everything has been said before me, but I’ll just drop one anyway..:P
Have a good rest and recharge your energy. Your reader’s will always be here waiting. There’s no need to rush for a post (ok, I hope nobody kills me for saying this) so fill up your happy bar till its green and then come back to cheeserland!
April 26th, 2008 at 11:46 am
In life we never can satisfy other’s … have a good rest - take a break ^__^
There’s no obligation to blog, Ringo
Keep that smile ! ^_____^
April 26th, 2008 at 1:06 pm
life is full of challenges, sometimes u win sometimes u lose. but i see u have everything to gain and so little to lose( ur beautiful hair being chopped off )…congrats to you cheesie.. cheers!
April 26th, 2008 at 1:24 pm
cheer up girl *hugs*
April 26th, 2008 at 1:52 pm
hey cheese! dont let unhappy things pulll u down, at the end of the day u will wonder what were u thinking when u replied those “unhappy” stuff. yeah.. something like that..
April 26th, 2008 at 2:36 pm
jiejie .. start to post an entry when you are ready ok? we will wait for you patiently … hugs
April 26th, 2008 at 2:52 pm
can introduce fiqa to me? ok just kidding!
yeah i would like to see you blog about other gals in MDG but i understand that would be under “sensitive” category… i’m sure u have plenty to tell
April 26th, 2008 at 2:56 pm
Ya la Cheesie, do this also die do that also die. Sometimes you just cannot win with the public.
April 26th, 2008 at 3:39 pm
aisay, tot u could win. anywaya, a top 6 finish is an achievement?im sure da votes were not wasted~
April 26th, 2008 at 4:13 pm
Ringo… Well if I were you I definately gonna feel back being eliminated at this stage cos it’s just another step and you’ll be in the top 3… But then again, it’s not that bad afterall cos 3 person were eliminated at the same time instead of 1 which will make the situation more pathetic… anyway see you on tuesday k?
April 26th, 2008 at 5:17 pm
ringo….stay happy always~
April 26th, 2008 at 5:43 pm
If it makes u feel beter i thot u were really cute in da pics on MDG!
i dun fink u shud care abt da public. i fink u shud do wat feels rite n wat makes u happy.
hope u feel better soon.
April 26th, 2008 at 5:46 pm
there are some wise comments here, just listen to them
all the best
April 26th, 2008 at 6:19 pm
cheer up k? =)
April 26th, 2008 at 6:27 pm
cheer up cheesie!
^_^
April 26th, 2008 at 7:01 pm
You are so different from your personality on MDG. I think you are hiding behind your computer and trying to portray a side of you that is unreal.
April 26th, 2008 at 7:31 pm
The sun, moon & stars shineth again in Cheeserland!
April 26th, 2008 at 8:14 pm
Cheer up Cheesie~~ Good to have you back. =)))))
April 26th, 2008 at 8:33 pm
life will be happy again after awhile.
stay bubbly!
April 26th, 2008 at 8:57 pm
You really got lucky with the London weather!
Cheesie: Unbelievably lucky indeed. If i were any luckier i would have bumped into you.
April 26th, 2008 at 10:04 pm
pardon me for asking but, who was the comment moderator really ? am so curiouss, cause he/she actually deleted so many comments it made people annoyed o_o”
andd, welcome back!
April 26th, 2008 at 10:46 pm
feel better cheesie!!
April 26th, 2008 at 10:48 pm
Oh akhirnya! Something happy here. Can’t wait for more to come.
April 26th, 2008 at 11:21 pm
yeah, dont worry be happy! ^__^
April 26th, 2008 at 11:22 pm
so happy this post is…..wooooooooooooooooooooooo
yahooooooooooooooooooo…..no more discussions!!!
April 26th, 2008 at 11:27 pm
MDG is an eye opener to your real selfish personality that you could hide behind a computer but not in real life. From a supporter of yours, you totally loss me towards the middle to end….
I really could not believe how selfish you could be…
April 27th, 2008 at 12:32 am
AEP, what is ur problems?
April 27th, 2008 at 12:33 am
aiyo, why still got irritating fly around, just ignore her, she’s testing ur patience.
the fact that she keeps coming back means you win already.
April 27th, 2008 at 12:38 am
only important people get hate comments haha ~ *wink wink*
April 27th, 2008 at 12:42 am
I bet you really got alot of things to write coz tooooo many stories about you around the net. Even i got tired reading already…. T,T
April 27th, 2008 at 2:39 am
hey ringo,
i just realised tht you dropped by my blog.;)
as you have noticed, my post about you compared to the other girls are a bit harsh. allow me to clarify myself that what i wrote about you are purely on the competition purpose and nothing personal. Although my comments on your pictures are harsh, but personally I find you very bubbly and approachable.
sorry if any remarks from me hurt your feelings. still friends?
April 27th, 2008 at 3:19 am
Wow 54th comment on 54 days later. Cheer up cheesie ^^. Don’t worry too much about not making top 3. You’re still no 1 for your cheesie supporters^^
April 27th, 2008 at 12:44 pm
Hey Cheesie..welcome back.
I missed reading yr posts! Hope u’ll cheer up soon!
Don’t worry so much already ok?!
April 27th, 2008 at 1:10 pm
I hope you will have long straight hair again. I really love that.
April 27th, 2008 at 1:25 pm
Hey Cheesie! its Clara here. Remember me? From Zouk. anyway even if you don’t, i just wanna remind u that ur still as pretty as ever and no matter what happens, continue blogging and stay cheesie forever!
April 27th, 2008 at 1:58 pm
Cheesie u need a hug~ =) Hugzzz.all the best~
April 27th, 2008 at 2:16 pm
very nice posts. nice pictures and congratulation again for being the top 6 of Malaysian Dreamgirl.
April 27th, 2008 at 3:05 pm
nothing has changed…we still love you…hugz~
April 27th, 2008 at 6:09 pm
don’t be silly, you hv all the right to delete nasty comments, why let these ppl spoil ur mood?!
“your blog is like your home, don’t invite anyone angry to tea”
April 27th, 2008 at 6:25 pm
yes! ringo’s back to blogging…blog abt yr MDG experience kays~? =)
April 27th, 2008 at 10:39 pm
Cheer up girl… it must be tough for you for the past 54 days.. must be missing your family members and Cheedie alot…
my two cents - we cant stop what people comment or think about us… as long as your love ones know who you are…. the rest just ignore it….
really looking forward to your latest update
April 27th, 2008 at 11:04 pm
Babe, they’re selling the show. They’ll find something to pinpoint and all that. That’s what makes the show. At the end of the day, your readers know you better than you’re you on TV - because you’re not meant to be the real you on TV / reality TV on Internet or whatsoever. They might portray a different you. You being true to yourself is all that matters. I totally understand how you feel, from one who comes from a reality show previously.
Take this as a good learning experience abt the entertainment industry, and you’ll get further just being a blogger, coz you can write, you have great command in English and this is definitely not the end.
Congrats for coming this far babe… you’ll go even further.
April 28th, 2008 at 12:00 am
Dear Cheesie
I’m glad to see you back on your blog. I *heart* your blog, and I think it highlights you much much better than MDG ever will, and quite frankly, although I didn’t think you were great as a model, I heart you on Cheeserland. So please keep blogging when you feel like it again. Anyway, I don’t think MDG is a real stepping stone to anything great, so I don’t think you missed out on much, like Jean.
Hope there are no hard feelings on the contents of my blog.
April 28th, 2008 at 3:51 am
i find it amusing how so many ppl gave bad comments on you on their blogs while u were in mdg and now sucking up to u.
sigh.anyhow, you have a very pretty face and all the best in whatever you decide to do in the future.
April 28th, 2008 at 4:13 am
Ringo, I say this for the sake of your health and not for anything else. You have an anorexic BMI and need to put on weight!! It was no wonder you could not carry those dresses, because they were carrying you!
April 28th, 2008 at 6:31 am
Welcome back, Ringo.
Looking back, it was so surreal as a dream wasnt it? Certainly it was a life experience. From the beginning it was already hard for you, we all see and understand that. But it was fabulous you came this far. The best part is, you discovered more sides of yourself that you didnt know existed, right?
Love, sugar.
ps: our hair used to be of the same length, now too! ha!
April 28th, 2008 at 11:52 am
It’s rather ironic how I don’t consider MDG to be a very good production but am still watching every single episode. Anyway, I think you’re great for keeping your cool throughout the show and being diplomatic.
It’s nice to see you on the show.
April 28th, 2008 at 12:01 pm
cheer up.. eat more cheese… be more cheeseeen….
so sad to see ur all gloomy… =(
April 28th, 2008 at 12:05 pm
Welcome back Ringo!
Look on the bright side. Although you didn’t make it into the finals of MDG, you gained more traffic, new loyal readers who had never previously heard of your blog, and new friends!
April 28th, 2008 at 1:23 pm
AEP got shot down for making a comment… ha!ha!
its like walking into a lynching… didn’t someone ask the “haters” to make comments when Ringo is back to defend herself…. haih!!!
April 28th, 2008 at 2:22 pm
hey girl.. cheer up kay? Being in a reality show is not fun at all. I had another fren who was in another reality show… Malaysia’s Most Beautiful or something like that….
She told me the whole story and how they edited the shows to make you seem like someone who you really are not.
Anyways…you have been good in the whole show. No cat fights…:D
April 28th, 2008 at 3:15 pm
y0 cheeser,,.
How much a night?
I will be in msia soon
please let me know
April 29th, 2008 at 12:31 am
arlo cheesie ….
the pics of u in london . snapping pictures of the London eye … looks cool
but i got to say that the ribbon u had on your jacket. looks stupid .
cause i’m currently studying in london , and i don’t see ppl with a huge ribbon . perhaps only u
-end-
April 29th, 2008 at 9:33 am
The character of Brooks in Shawshank Redemption is a very sad one, but we should get inspired by Andy instead isn’t it?
The whole comment fiasco is over and done with anyway, you’re right to not taking the baits.
May 1st, 2008 at 10:42 pm
eeeh look gloucester road
Cheesie:
May 4th, 2008 at 12:30 am
hey cutie pie, you are cool.
May 6th, 2008 at 9:52 am
Hello cheesie !
Were u studying in the UK last time ??
May 15th, 2008 at 11:01 am
See you photo make me feel wanted to go back there again~