Dear Koyuki,

When you greeted mommy yesterday with joy, you cannot imagine how happy mommy felt.

I thought you were angry with me because i abandoned you at this horrible place full of sick animals. And i’m so sorry to make you feel like one of them. You must have thought that mommy don’t want you anymore. I’m so so sorry i cannot bring you home, because you could die without the supportive system.

I thought you will never want to look at me anymore because i made you suffer. You were throwing up non-stop and you refused to eat at all. I can imagine. Mommy was sick before too, but you suffered so much more. I am so sorry there wasn’t anything more i could do. I’m sorry i cried too, i know it made you feel worse. read more