#fornownotalone

February 3, 2012 in Senti-Emmental

i literally kneeled down and thanked every single god i ever know existed in history books and my memory. Including Christopher Nolan. And Chuck Norris. You know, just in case.

THANK ALL THE GODS!

If you know me well enough you know that i don’t do this god stuff. Except maybe Cheesus Crust. During pizza time. But i do believe in fate. And i also almost believed that it was my fate that i’m destined to be foreveralone, and that it was my trade off for having other rare privileges. Life is not perfect and i understood and wanted to accept it.

But secretly i prayed so hard. To every god i ever know existed in history book and my memory. Sometimes in multiple languages. Just to up my chances.

And then one day, (one of the) god(s) must have been really bored. He picked up my prayer hotline and answered it.

So, if you guys must know, i have met someone.

*waves hands up and down to silence gasps*

I know right. Just a couple of months ago i was lamenting and whining about my lack of luck in relationship. I must have made so much noise that even gods couldnt tahan anymore wtf.

Right, god?

I’d also like to take this opportunity to make a public apology for calling you Scumbag God. I take that back now. Here are ten thousand witnesses. *cues virtual nods* Unless you are going to tell me you didn’t do it. The aliens did. Then my accusation stands. Unless, of course, you are actually aliens.

So God/Aliens, thank you for letting me meet someone who is so sweet it made me tear.

Someone who gives me so much without asking what’s in for him in return.

Someone whom i didn’t immediately friendzone just because he is nice. (Guys, i’m here to restore your hope: Effort pays off).

Someone who has touched me in ways that nobody has ever had. (my heart la, don’t simply think.)

Someone who lets me know how much more i am worth and how much better i deserve to be treated, after all those guys who were only willing to make half-ass effort which made me believe that that was the best i could ever ask for.

Someone i fell in love with.

Now i am quite terrified by this sudden strike of luck. I am so used to working hard for everything i want: money, security, respect, popularity, lifestyle. And i obtained them. By working hard for it. Except love. I guess it is not something you can get by just putting all your heart sweat and blood in. At least it didn’t work for me.

So i wonder what i did to deserve this luck. Like, what’s the catch? What do i have to sacrifice in exchange for this new found fortune? Because all i did was public whining and self-pitying and maybe a little bit of a mix of desperate waiting and praying. Unless those are counted as effort. But i did maybe in passing made some vague statement to god/aliens that i was willing to give up other things in life for love. Ok shit me, i announced it on my blog. :X

So now i am scared shitless. But happy. Shitlessly happy.

I don’t know what will happen, because nobody knows. Except maybe Chuck Norris. That’s why i still try to talk to him sometimes. Maybe there will be a happy ending, maybe there will not. It is way too soon to talk about forever right now.

But all i know is that for now i am not alone, and i know that this will work, because i want it to.

Because man, he is a catch so great imma buy fucking gunny sack and thick ropes and scotch tapes and metal chain wtf.

FML this shit just got real.

I know la. Now you’re all like, pic or didn’t happen!!!!

You guys are probably right. Maybe I’m totally making this up.

66 people cheesed “#fornownotalone”

  1. If you are not making this up, I am pleased for you :D

  2. *check calendar* *3/2/2012* *phew, not april fool*

    ok, picts please or didn’t happen =D

  3. Confeitoiren says:

    CHEESIE!! Y U NO PUT THE RING ON HIM OSO?

    but on second thought are y trying to fuck with my mind?

  4. :D I’m happy for you. Pictures when you’re ready! :D

  5. wow.. must be the new dragon year that u got luck in relationships n love

  6. :twisted: so this is that BIG SECRET you said you will bribe us! jia yu!

  7. NiCE
    Dont fuck it up ;-)
    Romantic love is just great at first but then what really matters is commitment/trust and murtual respect and the ability to make each other laugh
    Thats what I have found and fucked up on a few occassions due to thinking that there may be be something better around the corner
    New watch, new car, new woman it means nothing
    Just stick with what is good
    Fingers crossed that you have found everything
    N
    x

  8. Purple Eevee says:

    So happy for you! :) Don’t worry about bad things, some people can’t believe at how lucky they are and always think something bad has to happen. Remember that your focus is your reality

  9. Glad that you found love Cheesie! You worked hard for the things you wanted, now love is coming your way ^^ Please be happy!

    xx THT Christina

  10. did you remember to thank morgan freeman??

  11. Congrats Cheesie! I believe you didn’t make this up =) Happy for you ~~ :cheh:
    Last but not least… pics please!!! :D

  12. hope it works out for you!

  13. Congrats! So happy for you but a bit jelly too, nao that you have everthing in life! :D

  14. Omedeto, Cheesie!

    I am happy for you~ :grin:

    Nao your life is kanpeki! :twisted:

    Looking forward to read more about your new love and also photos of both of you together.

    They’ll definitely make my day, just like all your posts.

  15. Congrats Cheesie :D I hope it lasts superb long. We don’t need a picture to believe you. Some people are maybe shy :)

  16. i think its Trueeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!
    CONGRATSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
    Happy happy happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

  17. *squeaaaak* She’s finally in wuv! Congratulations!!! GAMBATTE! (I smiled 360° when I read this!) ^∇^

  18. LOL ~

    I would love to see the pixx~ But regardless.. I do believe u !! ^^

    xoxo HitomiNeko xoxo
    http://hitomineko-hn.blogspot.com
    i’m hosting a GIVEAWAY ^^

  19. shitlessly happy :D!

  20. So happy for you I nearly peed myself! :shock: -> -> -> ->

    …ok no, I nearly peed myself because 4 cups of tea and no pee break, but…CLOSE ENOUGH!

    So THAT’S why you started dressing sexier, oooOooOoOoh!!

    Happy for you!!!

  21. Dear Cheesie, still remember you went for Koi Omikuji (Love Fortune Paper) and you’ve got what you wanted? :P Maybe you don’t have to sacrifice anything, because this Dragon year is probably your lucky year!

  22. happy for you! hope this happens to me too ^^

  23. Pic or it didn’t happen! Awww, wish you both all the best. So sweet and happy for you. Pic soon we hopes. x

  24. Hey congrats :) welcome to the loversville community…hehe

  25. Have been supporting you under the ground & this is the 1st time leave a cheese for you. Have a blessed wonderful year ahead Cheesy! #youwillnotbeforeveralone# I believe.

  26. Sincerely shitlessly happy for you. T-T
    Valentines’ is coming, enjoy it!! :D

    While, I’m just going to be #foreveralone here. /cues sad bgm/

    Love you, girl! You deserve all these happiness, hence don’t worry abt what you need to pay back. (;

  27. if this is real, i’m genuinely happy for you!!!! :) :)

    i felt so much when you wrote about the foreveralone thing cos you said everything i felt about relationships and love.

    now for my fornownotalone….

  28. Perhaps omikuji are accurate! I sort of had a hunch that you might have found someone when I read that post and it turns out to be so!

  29. pics or it didn’t happen, yes yes!
    but congrats yo! no longer foreveralone!
    i personally don’t really care about partners tbh i reckon i’m friendless alr and couldn’t care less =.= hahaha

    together forever yo :) congrats again anyway!

  30. Congratulations and all the best Cheesie!

  31. of course it wont last unless one of you makes the commitment to move

    And that if you become a star, people are going to go to see you. If you remain an actor, they’re going to go and see the story you’re in.
    Morgan Freeman
    You are a star
    Hey! put some prayers in for the rest of us!! NAO! (+:

  32. congratz Cheesie! maybe someday we will see a fashion blog post bout couple shirt. :lol:

  33. Awesome news! Very happy for you. :-)

  34. Woohoo…..congrats, Cheesie!! Could it be Henry Golding? I wish you and him are a pair!! You’ll make a lovely power couple together. :idea: Wishing you all the best. Just enjoy the journey and let everything falls in place in time. Go Cheesie!! :twisted:

  35. It isnt real

    as you know

  36. congrats chessiieee :)

  37. Congratz chesie! ;-)
    You’re not alone now. :)

  38. Show my flag!!!!!

  39. He’s a taiwanese? =O :)

  40. Congrats!! I hope it all works out for you!!!

    And don’t worry, if you’re willing to work so hard for everything else in your life, you can definitely make this work! Can’t wait to hear more about it~ :twisted:

  41. is it the one i met? wtf

    kaypoh.

    or damn fast ada lagi. WTF.

    Kaypoh x 10

  42. Omg! #paktor like a boss! :lol: so happy for u!

  43. <3 New Follower :blush: but nevertheless Congrats!~ Japanese! :roll: ~ The one who sent you goods from Tokyo? :3 :grin:

  44. Is it japanese? Oh cheesie please don’t keep us in suspense =p

  45. love happens when you least expect it :)

  46. Yeah very true… love happens when you least expect it :)

  47. Ringo,

    So many romances gone bad have left you a bit skittish.

    Everyone desires love. Often one finds that search for love, and elusive and hard to catch type causes great ups and downs.

    Have you found that after falling in love that everyday reality is not as exiting as the hunt for love?

    Your growing pains while unique to you, have been experienced in one way or another by just about everyone reading your post.

    Perhaps you should a little more about God. Tryiing to ask dieties you know little about or really have no belief in will earn you little in gains.

    Learn a bit about the origins of Love. The depths of love and what miracles real and true love can bring in ones life.

    We all wish you well.

    David

  48. yey to no friendzone february!

    somehow this reassures me that wishes do come true. peace and love miss cheesie! ;)

  49. You deserve ALL the love ^^ congrats yo!~ n thank you for not friendzoning a good guys ^^

    • Testing, 123 ;)

      Hello Cheeserland fans,
      hello Hui Ling Tan aka Cheesie.

      My name is Micha, from Berlin, Germany and some of you might remember me. I find this post very interesting and here is what I think you people should know. She will probably delete this comment and soon as she sees it, but I don’t care. You reap what you saw.

      Of course, it’s not me she is talking about in this post so happily, it is some other guy she met. But let me tell you a bit about timing here. Apparantly, she met him less than a week after I left her house, her bed and her country. Maybe she even met him while she was still with me, could be. Or worse, she met him before me, spend a couple of month with the feelings for me and is now declaring him her new love.

      So yeah, I visited her in KL for Xmas and the New Year after she visited me in Germany, where we fell in love. Yes indeed, we fell in love and were quite happy with it (long distance aside). She never really blogged about it and I guess she had her reasons about it. One was, that she doesn’t want to the people to get hurt that she really cares about. That’s why she never blogged about her crying during our Skype sessions, the millions of Whatsapp messages, the “I miss you soooo much”, the emails and other things we exchanged. Instead she blogged about how #foreveralone she felt, even though we had strong feelings for each other.

      That’s why I visited her in Malaysia to give this relationship a heading. The trip was lovely from my perspective, but that’s not what she experienced. To make a long story short, all I did for her, like coming to Malaysia, bringing gifts, writing her a poem, visiting her mother, caring for her all the time, even when was so drunk on New Year’s eve that she couldn’t even walk. All that wasn’t enough. It was a “half-ass effort” from her perspective. Funny that even on the very last day, she told me that she loves me, which I told her in return. Like the dozens of times before…

      I don’t care what poor guy is pampering her for now, but I would like you people to know that you don’t know the truth behind all this and that you should follow her example. What she did was awful and that’s not how you treat people. I was so shocked by her behaviour and accusations after I left, when she turned everything against me and kicked my in the balls for having loved her, that I lost it and called her bad names. Of course, that’s not a way to treat a lady either, but guys, she is no lady, she is a bad, emotionally poor person, only living an image of herself that you all got so used to over the years.

      Oh and yeah, she did not friendzone me after the awesome times we had. She kicked me in the nuts, humiliated me and made the lovely time I had with her in KL so bad, that I almost lost hope for love.

      Everyone deserves to be happy. I hope she will be. But I know she won’t in the long run when she continues to treat people like that. I certainly didn’t deserve that. But you folks deserve to know a bit more background information when she is so openly bragging about it. The more you know ;)

      Oh and Hui Ling, I still want my poem back. If you threw it away, what I assume you already did, just let me know.

  50. CONGRATS! =DDD. Hahaa is he in this photo? =P =). http://yfrog.com/oduotdj If so, you guys look great together! =D Great things do happen to good people! =)

  51. Hi Cheesie,

    I was just catching up on your blog, and I have to tell you that reading this really made my day. I just turned 25 (okay, I know not that old, but still scary!) and all my friends found happiness with another person. I have never been lucky in love. I have been trying to get myself to deal with the fact that I may end up #foreveralone and be okay with that. But, it’s hard. I get so bitter, and tired with how shitty men are. So, thank you for letting us know, because if the super busy, sweet, Cheesie can find a nice guy, I have a little more faith than I did yesterday. I wish you the best, and everything you desire in life!

    Love,
    Ann

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