What have you done to me…


I’m starting to think that it has become my new religion.

It is starting to scare me that i have become so insanely religious that i can’t stop thinking and talking about it all. the. damn. time, to the extend that i am also preaching this new found faith to everyone around me (including all of you reading this right now). To the point my friend warned her roommate to stop talking to me, else she would be brainwashed and lose all her money (buying air tickets etc) wtf.

My devotion to this new belief is shocking even to myself. I apologize in advance in case anyone here find my incessant preaching revolting, and that i have become this evangelist who gives sermon about how Japanese air cleanses my soul. If that is the case, you can maybe skip this and read an old post about… a dish washer. Or something. Unless the dish washer is made in Japan. Then i apologize in advance, twice.

But i am a changed person.

Probably still look the same la but i know something has changed because i feel different about myself. Which is probably what a religious person would likely say to you. Touché.

And when i think about it, there are very few things in life that can change a person so much. Money (or the lack thereof), Love (or the lack thereof), Religion. The last one is very sensitive and potentially problematic so it’s better i don’t say too much.

I am 100% 走火入魔 (literally means walk fire enter magic/demon wtf) in this case.

Each time i fly to this country i get more possessed by it and want to go back more. I am also starting to suspect an airline conspiracy that involves in incepting everyone who flies. Which explains everything and now it makes perfect sense, when you think about it. Well played, airlines. You win.

Recently when i fly on the plane looking down, i always imagine i have arms so long that i am hugging the entire island wtf.

And then there was one day i was walking home from Omotesando back to Aoyama. It was a 20 minutes walk and it was dark and raining and fucking cold. Alone.

And the danna was still at work at 11PM.

And then this was exactly what was going through my head.

It is 11PM, the walk is long and it is dark and raining and fucking cold. The danna will not be back before midnight.

He is working such long hours. I have to walk home alone and eat alone. But i have to thank him for working so hard because it is all for me and our family. I must thank his company and this job for providing a chance for us to be in Japan right now.


Thank you, this city, for making me feel so safe on the road at night, alone.

Thank you, people who work midnight at combini so i can buy Oden for supper.

Thank you, people who built this road i am walking on.

Thank you, people who have to work at night in the cold.

Thank you, people who painted these road signs.

Thank you, people who have made these warm clothes.

Thank you, trees. (Honestly i didn’t know what has that got to do with the situation, but that’s what i thought at the moment la)

Thank you, everyone who have smiled and be nice to me.

Thank you, people who cook all the fucking delicious food.

Thank you, everyone who have touched me with their sincerity and helpfulness.

Thank you garbage truck who picks up all garbage.

(By the way, i have seen two garbage trucks so far, that have dirty plushies hung over behind the truck, including a Stitch. I was like WTF IS THAT and the danna said, probably unwanted toys from kids and the truck driver deicded that they are too cute to be thrown away. That, was one of the cutest things i’ve ever seen in my life. Serious. I went chasing after it for a picture for you guys but it was gone.)

Thank you, people who made TV programs so addictive you have to park your car aside to watch.

Thank you, people who made effort putting up all these beautiful Xmas illuminations.

And then i reached home.

Thank you, people who built and clean this building.

(Then i proceeded to thank 200 other things including bricks and heated toilet seats before i fell alseep.)




That’s probably my daily prayer after adopting this new… belief.

Then i thought, if something can change you to becoming a better person who is so happy and peaceful and grateful in general, it is probably better than religions since religions don’t even do that do people all the time.

And if you’d like now, i’d be happy to show you the path to… heaven. Or something. You just have to keep reading this blog. And your brain will combust and turn into mush.emo5

No la. Joke. I mean whether you convert or not it’s up to you.

Sorry that was a joke too. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me.

I will try to blog more about non-Japanese dish washers now.




74 responses to “What have you done to me…”

  1. yuri says:

    cheesie, i feel u.ni also like japan so much,eventhough it doesn’t become my religion.www.nanyway, on new year’s eve i went to rotenburo onsen at odaiba, and i’m thankful for whoever made onsen in japan. big bow!

  2. angel says:

    hahaha funny and honest 🙂 goodluck on your new life!

  3. Kharnyee says:

    Blog more about Japan! I am interested to Japan. Hope can travel to there someday. You inspired me to learn Japanese. When you speak Japanese, your voice is very cuteeee! <3 Happy marriage with your danna. :Dnnhttp://kharnyee.blogspot.com/

  4. Jane Chuck says:

    I think I’m one of the person brainwashed by youuuuu!!HAHAHA CHECKING AIR TIX TO JP NAOO.

  5. J says:


  6. Cheesie says:

    I hardly go to onsen in Tokyo! Not famous for rotenburo. 🙁 Was it good?

  7. Cheesie says:

    Thanks a lot!

  8. Cheesie says:

    Then stay tuned for the next 280 posts or so

  9. Cheesie says:


  10. Cheesie says:


  11. Wing says:

    Hey Cheesie, nI’m so glad that something has changed you into a better person! I have to admit…LOL after reading your posts about Japan…and seeing all the pictures you’ve posted on Japan…I’ve actually been wanting to go myself!! I think it’s great that you found a place that you truly love and feel home at, and I can’t wait to read more of your stories about Japan! =)

  12. SingleByDesign says:

    i’m happy that you are starting your 2013 beautifully and wish you and your danna all the best 🙂 nyou’re right, we all have a lot to be thankful for, and not to take things for granted.

  13. Daphne says:

    Japan is very safe country!nnMe also feel so lucky can stay in this peaceful country nao! ~~^^ nAll the thingy just so nice and everyone are just so yasashii!nnCheesie! Enjoy your new country ok?nI’m here too if you feel bored !n*Although I’m always so shy with you*nn

  14. Krissy says:

    Your list of ‘thank you’s’ touched me so much I teared-up reading it. Felt I had to let you know that your gratefulness touches me all the way over here in Canada, and it makes me grateful for all the little things here (like me being able to type this in my nice warm home) and grateful for you, that you are able to impart this feeling. Thank you!

  15. KY says:

    i like Malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

  16. Annika Victoria says:

    YES YES YES I understand you so much, I’m going back for the second time in just 19 days and I know the exact feeling you have!!!!nnhttp://www.pineneedlecollective.com/

  17. xbunniex says:

    so weird how i think of it too. Japan does, change one, in my opinion. Never in my life have i been so devoted to a country and think that everything there is perfect, even the scariest and most batshit crazy things were wonderful. i’ve been there in the cold where it snowed on me whilst i was carrying groceries back to the quaint apartment that i was staying in.. it was cold but the feeling was like non other <3 i’m glad someone else understands what Japan is to me 🙂

  18. Nagareboshi says:

    I love Omotesando! It’s such a beautiful place, isn’t it?nThank you for the lovely post, as always! ^__^

  19. lazuli says:

    I felt the same when I was in Japan…more grateful and loving person.nI wonder why I can’t feel like this in my country…I came up with the conclusion it’s because of people. I can’t say I never feel grateful here but it’s less often…most of the time I’m pissed ahahanAnyway I miss Japan…I wish I can have a danna there ;)nnhttp://lazuli-in-paradise.com/

  20. Cheesie says:

    Thank you. I hope to read yours too!

  21. Cheesie says:

    I’m thankful that Japan activated my grateful button that was none existent before!

  22. Cheesie says:

    See you again soon!

  23. Cheesie says:

    Thank you too for nice comment !!! Super happy to know that!

  24. Cheesie says:

    Very good!!!!!!! 😀

  25. Cheesie says:

    Have great great fun!!!

  26. Cheesie says:

    Am sure many others do too! Thanks so much for your comment

  27. Cheesie says:

    Come back soon! Ganbatte!

  28. Cheesie says:

    Omotesando is my fav place in the whole Tokyo!

  29. Patt Irmina says:

    I’m flying to Japan in June. It’s going to be summer and omg im so excited!

  30. tiffy says:

    Hi Cheeise, I am doing the thank you thingy everyday after reading Xiaxue blog. Well, pple ard me might think i m crazy but these THANK YOU really manifesting in a good way and I m receving lots of good things happening ard me ^^

  31. Cassandra says:

    Please continue to brainwash me!! Your posts are one of the reason why I’m effing in love with Japan, and I always feel so much love whenever I read your Japan posts, to the point I’ll cry and everything >< I always talk about japan to my friends too hahaha. <3

  32. shao says:

    Went Tokyo for a week last October,n fell in love with this City right away.We felt so safe walking thru little alleys and quiet stairways 2our hotel. We went V6’s concert, before the concert starts,girls jz went toilet, n left their bags and belongings at their seats, UNATTENDED! That was a culture shock for me at first, haha. Girlfren told me its about mutual trust amongst people there. I guess if this happens in malaysia, your belongings will probably just disappear in a split seconds

  33. Satovan says:

    I feel you too ;A;nAll my feels about Japan are exactly what you have said in this blog post nAfter I got back from my Japan trip of two weeks,Life has never been the same

  34. Meduza says:

    Hello, Cheesie, greetings from Europe!nOne question – when your husband starts his work, so he was still there at 11 PM?

  35. Cheesie says:

    What do you mean? Yea it was a busy day!

  36. Cheesie says:

    ( T_T)\(^-^ )

  37. Cheesie says:

    ( T_T)\(^-^ ) *gives tissue * … *washes brain*

  38. Cheesie says:

    Have fun!!!

  39. Cheesie says:

    Good for you!!!

  40. Paaserby says:

    Actually…… we don’t mind that you keep preaching about Japan……. but…………………………… can we talk about other electronic products instead of dish washers again? LOL.. ur post is effin cute and funny… 😀

  41. ef.ae says:

    the streets are beautiful… even without leaves or flowers… don’t know why but the environment looks so comfortable to live in…

  42. prance says:

    I’m so glad that you found something that makes you extra happy! I’m also glad that you’re thanking people!!! (not something like god because it really is hardworking people’s work)

  43. J says:

    I’m so glad that you have found something that has changed you and made you so happy! :3 I hope I can find something like that too ahuehuehuehue. Your happiness is so infectious la, I can feel it through the Internet

  44. Riki says:

    When will we see pic of your danna ringo

  45. Benmcc says:

    I guess I’ve lived here too long to think that working until midnight is a good thing for one’s family. Dinner alone for a few months is one thing but every night until he retires… It is easy to focus on negatives and I feel moved by your optimism and positive view.

  46. Cheesie says:

    It’s not an everyday thing and we do get plenty of free time when work cools down 🙂

  47. Benmcc says:

    That’s good. 🙂

  48. biqque says:

    i went there once, strictly fall in love with it. i really really really want to go there again. lucky u :)nnmy japan travelogue : http://biqque.blogspot.com/

  49. biqque says:

    oh ya, btw, keep on blogging about japan. that’s how i grow the miss feeling towards japan. FROM YOUR BLOG, BABE! 😀

  50. Danna says:

    I also used to be devoted to Japan during the 2 and half years I got my Master’s Degree in Tsukuba University. But it all came to an end and I got back to reality when I entered in a Japanese company with aaaall the never ending rules (how to speak properly according to the hierarchy, how to dress and behave, the men privileges over women, etc). I still like Japan, but now I can see a side of this country that tourists and exchange students usually don’t see.

  51. yuri says:

    actually it was ooedo onsen monogatari in odaiba,hmm maybe for rotenburo – the famous places will be outside tokyo like beppu,hakone,etc. but not bad,for new year’s eve. http://www.ni like tokyo dome’s laqua also,so many different massage’ treatments.nhow about you cheesie? do you like massage and onsen also?

  52. lyannechan says:

    Ohemm~ I know how you feel… the first time I went to Japan 4 years ago~ well I was 16 back then I was all about anime and stuff~ I was really clueless about Japan’s culture and then when I came back to PH and really learned about Japan~oh man I wanted to go back so badly~ I really hope after college I could smell Japanese air again~ I miss Japan so much!

  53. Sandran says:

    Your obsession with Japan worries and baffles me. Maybe because I have never been there before but also perhaps because I don’t care to travel there in the forseeable future. I wouldn’t attribute that change you have seen in yourself to Japan the place or people but to the fact that travelling has given you depth of character and increased knowledge, because you have been to more places than just Japan. Good that you are so happy though 🙂

  54. Rinetto says:

    Hi Cheesie, you are not alone.nI just came back on 08 Jan’13 and there haven’t been a minute not thinking about Japan till now!nPlanning for my next trip… …nI have been brainwashing my colleagues in my company too… They just dun get it why I love Japan so much. Japan have so much to offer! No one who visited there will not like this country and their people.nAnyway congrats on the new chapter in your life. Wishing you and your danna a blissful marriage ^_^

  55. Cheesie says:

    You are right, the change is due to exposure to more cultures and knowledge during my travels, and I discovered that in this particular country, i see the most different things compared to what i have believed otherwise my whole life, and I found change in myself. Good change . There’s nothing for you to worry if I become generally a happier person. Unless Japan is a drug. Which it is.

  56. Cheesie says:

    Also if you read many many many many many other comments sharing the same sentiments in my previous posts about Japan, it isn’t so much a surprising and baffling feeling. You probably have to be there to personally understand. 🙂 hope you change your mind to visit there some time.

  57. Cheesie says:

    Happy for you!!!! Please continue to brainwash more people lol. It’s also a perfect time to go now as the currency has dropped so much 🙂

  58. Cheesie says:

    Hope you get to go back soon!!! PH is so much nearer!!!

  59. Cheesie says:

    ( why is your name danna lol) anyway, I totally get it. It’s hard to believe but there was one point I was so tired of all the reigi I felt so humiliated and inferior. But slowly I came to learn it and now I see how important reigi is and how it is exactly what makes a person different. 🙂

  60. Cheesie says:

    I love rotenburo lol I actually went to ooedo once but it was so late they closed *cries* I don’t go much in Tokyo though. My best experience was in Aso and Matsumoto 🙂

  61. Cheesie says:

    Thank you , that means alot

  62. lyannechan says:

    Yes I hope so too! D: I miss JAPAN sooo much! D:rnanyway.. I always loved your blog! ^^

  63. C says:

    Cheesie, I totally hear you. Well, I’ve never been to Japan – so perhaps my love for Japan has not reached the same depths of appreciation as yours, but it has the very same potential. I have wanted to go there (move there) since I was little. I’m trying to learn the language by myself and will eventually take real classes. I’m glad to have found your blog because your experiences are sooo inspirational. Thank Cheesus for yout blog, and, of course, Japan! 😀

  64. Cheesie says:

    Thank you so much 🙂

  65. Neko (=^.^=) says:

    chanced upon your blog when im researching on japan one day…. and i’ve been following u on instagram/post since then! nnyep totally agreed that it had become an religion ever since my first trip to japan..~ im madly in love with japan.. in everything… hopefully i cn visit japan like at least yearly… lolx nnso when frens ask me like …nnwhere shld they go for overseas trip? JAPAN LOHnwat wat wat food is nice? JAPAN got the best xxxx food LOHnevery answers is JAPAN!nntotally feel u~

  66. ahlost says:

    i like your religion 😡

  67. :') says:

    I found this post from your 100 japan question post and its so sweet it actually made me tear. Its so sweet amd amazing that you have so many things to thank for while most people (me included) complain and not realize how blessed they are. Thanks for the reminder cheesy! You truly deserve whatever goodness that is bestowed upon you in the past, current and future. I mean that from my heart. All the best and have a nice day!! 🙂

  68. :') says:

    I found this post from your 100 japan question post and its so sweet it actually made me tear. Its so sweet amd amazing that you have so many things to thank for while most people (me included) complain and not realize how blessed they are. Thanks for the reminder cheesy! You truly deserve whatever goodness that is bestowed upon you in the past, current and future. I mean that from my heart. All the best and have a nice day!! 🙂

  69. Cheesie says:

    Thank you too for your comment 🙂

  70. help says:

    Hey cheese… I’m pregnanT. (30w4d) and I’m still not showing. Now my ex-bf thinks im faking my pregnancy to keep him. Help plaes

  71. Wei says:

    Hey Cheesie (Hui Ling, I’m your long time reader),
    Seeing you praising and thanking has inspired and encouraged me very much.
    There’s a hymn we sing often – It is better to sing than be sighing, so let us rejoice ever more. We often encouraged each other to praise the Lord in every situation, that’s including the bad ones. But isn’t it strange to praise and thanks something bad? Once I thankful for it, the Lord does make me see it may not be the worst.
    I often question what is the meaning of human living? Is it just for working hard to get a good life? I found my answer, it is to contain God as what the Bible has said that we are created as a vessel. So every time I praise and thank, there is a sweet feeling, almost like crying but it’s a happy tears coming through. It is strange, the Lord just working His way into us so we express His divine attributes, people see you changed (that’s His desire according to the Bible).
    Hope you don’t mind I share this, also I’m not religious, I just love this sweet relationship I have with the One who created all things (religious is doing something for God without love).

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