May 6, 2013 in Malaysia

Hello guys.

GE13 is over, and i can’t sleep. Maybe many of you can’t sleep too? Welcome.

I apologize in advance for my blabbering in this blog post. Even I don’t know what i am going to write.


As you all know i am publicly unpatriotic, but i actually don’t hate Malaysia. It would be quite crazy to hate your own country. I admit i don’t love it with a burning passion until i can sacrifice everything for it, but i don’t hate it. I am thankful that my ancestors moved from South China to this country, (which i think is much, much, much, much better, at least i can have a Facebook account), and i am forever grateful that it is Malaysia who made me a moderately successful blogger (and hence all the amazing opportunities in life that ensued), gave me a moderately comfortable life, and allows me all you super awesome readers, which i doubt i can achieve given i was born and raise elsewhere. For that i thank my grandparents, my mom and my country.

But I hate the government who rules it, so much. For over a decade. Maybe two. And sometimes i blur the lines between hating the people who cheat and lie to the rakyat, and the entire nation itself. There are times i made mistakes and made myself a fool in your eyes. I am not proud of them.

But yesterday i decided that i will perform the minimal duty as a Malaysian citizen. I drove back to my hometown, Seremban, to vote. Together with my mom. I was proud that i did. For the first time i feel that i actually did something for my country, other than promoting Nasi Lemak on Instagram.

But some people in this country lied and cheated us for their own selfish benefits and unjust victory.

I am so heartbroken.

I feel so sad for people who fought so hard for this country. I feel despaired for my family who has been wanting for a better future since 4 elections ago. I feel sad for the brave leaders who have fought all their lives for the rakyat just to be defeated by pure evil, corrupted powers. I am horrified that this is where my future child’s will grow up in. All these injustice is driving everyone around me crazy.

I feel cheated that all our 5 years of wistful hope for a better Malaysia, has just unceremoniously come to an end like this, and what comes is another 5 years of uncertainty.

I am not even in touch with the whole politics scene enough to comment on it, nor know what’s gonna happen after this. And it would be wrong to sound so negative and say that we have lost all hope and let’s get the hell out of here, just because we are blinded by rage and disappointment. Some of my friends have been extremely positive, and said keep having faith and let’s do it slowly. And i am extremely touched by that.

And i can only hope that the new (old) government realizes how powerful we rakyat have become, and feel compelled to be more careful and do a better job the next five years. Although i think i hardly have the patience for that when there’s already enough crazy things going around.


On a happier note, the danna and i are flying off for a one-month Weddingmoon in Santorini and other parts of Europe. And then after that we will be back to Japan for a short while.

Let me be an escapist for awhile. Let me go away and cling my happiness onto what i love the so much. And thinking about that alone makes me happy. After all what is better than being able to be together with the one who matters to you the most?

I am still an incredibly lucky girl. Presented with choices in her life.

And for that i am thankful enough. Thank you Malaysia and i hope the best for all of us Malaysians.







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25 responses to “Malaysia”

  1. Jacq says:

    I guess we all feel the same way tonight.

  2. Vivian says:

    It’s a night where we truly see unity, the meaning of 1Malaysia. They may win Malaysia, but not Malaysians!

  3. says:

    my dad ran for parliament seat.but lost to bn.cuz they cheated.big time.they gave out ang pows to them natives.rm 50.on the voting day.and they were willing to have just a mere rm 50 in exchange for their future.although i’m upset my dad didnt win as he spent loads of time and energy to campaign.i feel much sadder for the natives cuz bn is gonna take away their land and whatever that is rightfully theirs.rm 50 in exchange for their much sadder dirtier can this get….

  4. Raine Lee ♡ says:

    I’m so glad you wrote this, Cheesie.

  5. JT says:

    I too was very despaired and disappointed when i saw the vote-buying, IC handed out to foreign workers and then the cheats that BN did in order to win. They have won the GE but they have lost the hearts and respect of many citizens. Despite all the foul plays involved, what is more needed in the next GE is to get the support from the people in rural areas of Swak as they make up a large number of parliamentary seats. thank you for exercising your right as a Malaysian today. we must not give up! nnHave a good weddingmoon 🙂

  6. Shao says:

    I woke up at 4am, with a hope that I would see cheering post on social media from all my friends, but what I saw was just disappointment, and couldnt fall asleep after that, first thing this morning, i told my husband :” lets continue the plan of migration” nnbtw, Happy Weddingmoon!

  7. Christine says:

    I’ve been up since 2 in the morning last night because I was so disappointed about the results. I wouldn’t mind if BN won it fairly but the thought that they cheated and lied to Malaysians just baffles me. I’m only 16 and I already lose hope for a better Malaysia. Governments need to stop taking the native’s lands and reduce coruption!nOh, happy weddding moon btw! ♥♥

  8. 3yin says:

    I hope everyone can move on but not give up the fight. Change does not come easy especially going up against people who have been in power for so long and this is politics. I have huge respect for the people who fought so long but never give up and I think all Malaysians shall not give up too. It is more important to be united now than ever. nnThank you for sharing an honest and mature view on this, you never know how many people/readers you mange to reach out by doing this. nnBtw glad that you still have Japan to fall back on to inject happiness and positivism when the going gets rough! Enjoy the weddingmoon!

  9. ahlost says:

    happy weddingmoon 🙂

  10. Pinkaholiclydia says:

    Truely agreed on what you had wrote. I’m disappointed as well! It an unfair game after all!!!!!!!!1

  11. NatashaTing says:

    I’m so, so glad that you wrote this.

  12. Hanie says:

    Enjoy your weddingmoon! :DnMost malaysians have the same thought as you. 🙂 nThe light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it. John 1:5

  13. Tyler says:

    Well said Cheesie 🙂

  14. Clara says:

    We malaysians r heart broken today, dis is the first time i cried for msia – feeling so helpless, b strong msians!!!!

  15. Anonymous says:

    nice post, let’s dont give u our homeland,pray for better Malaysia in this 5yrs journey.

  16. BUU says:

    BN won the election and they are going to kill us Chinese kao kao. RUN.

  17. Lee says:

    Don’t feel bad – you did what you could and BN actually lost the popular vote. And Malaysians are becoming more politically mature which can only be good for the future.nn

  18. Edward Teoh says:

    for those who have voted for BN… Watch this video….

  19. <3 says:

    it’s okay to be sad, and i appreciate that you approached this topic cautiously and without blind angry lashings. i am a BN supporter, not for its politics running across racial lines, not for its cases of corruption but because i truly feel it is the less of two evils. i feel the opposition has done a lot to create fear and hatred amongst the people, and i feel disappointed when i see people share hearsay things about all the deceptive hateful actions that the government is undertaking. no i do not think it is beneath them, but i wish people would be smart enough to fully assess and confirm claims before they go jumping the gun. have faith in malaysia’s maturing democracy, hopefully the government will get smarter now that they know they have their every move watched 😉 Santorini sounds amazing, lucky you!

  20. Bethany says:

    I don’t quite know about Malaysia political thing, BUT technically you are Malaysian Chinese, what make you think other country is much better than the country where your ancestor come from?unless you think your ancestor is not come from a pleasant country.nnI was quiet like you, and enjoy reading your blog, and I was trying to understand why you love other country more than your own country, but I was disappointed you are such unpatriotic, I can’t imagina a child who doesn’t love her mother, even her mother might be a bad gal, you can’t deny never it.

  21. Landy says:

    Hi Cheese..i love you’re’re photo are so want to buy an iphone, you use the iphone 4s or iphone 5? what can suggest me to buy?nnLandy

  22. Cheesie says:

    Dear idiot, you are not making ANY sense at all. You accuse me for saying Malaysia is better than where my ancestor are from and then accuse me for saying other coutries are better than Malaysia. Please do me a favor, stop reading this blog. I’m ashamed to have a reader like you.

  23. JackJack says:

    I have already registered my team for SOX 2013! With SOX Dance, Drums and Hoops back, it’s going to be an epic battle! I’m so looking forward to making new friends and winning some prizes at the regional heats in Ipoh, KL & Kuching! It’s all happening on the 2nd & 9th June. Guys if you have got what it takes, you really should register! Trust me, it’s going to be fun!n

  24. Bethany says:

    all am saying was aren’t you suppose to love Malaysia and China? it doesn’t make any sense to you?maybe we have different ethical understanding. I’m a Chinese, may be I become aggrresive when people saying they don’t like China,nnBut I didn’t assault you in the first place, and It’s been one and half year since I began to read your blog, this is the way you reply me? call me idiot, ha.nlast wishes before I go, happy weddingmoon, Cheesie, and BYE.

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