Today this blog turns 11 years old.
Last year i briefly thought about not being able to have posts like these anymore. But i guess it survived yet another year.
I thought to myself, i have persisted something for 10 years, and even if it doesn’t work anymore, i considered it an achievement. It was like, 我给了自己一个交代。都值了。
During my interview with BFM last month, i was asked to share my tips to successful blogging. I thought for a long while (it sounded like i answered effortlessly but that’s because they cut out my errrs and uhmmms lolol. Thanks Natalie.) before i concluded that it was plain luck.
It was true. I was lucky. I am lucky. Some may consider this a moderately successful blog, only because a small amount of people will occasionally google “cheeserland” or vaguely remember my make up mode + multi-filtered face, and that sometimes people want to interview me on how i become moderately successful (only because the radio announcer was a reader of this blog lolol thanks again Natalie).
But i only consider myself successful because i am happy and free now. That’s my ultimate definition of success. You can be earning multi-million dollars and be unhappy. You can have the topmost position in a global conglomerate and feel entrapped.
But i am now independent, content, and happily waking up 7am on my own terms lol. I feel that i now understand that i have something to live for.
So yea i didn’t really give an answer to the interview question. If i must it will become very pretentiously philosophical lolol.
But i guess, writing something one truly love works works for me. In the beginning it was for myself, but a while later i realized sharing what i love actually benefitted some people who share the same passion. We learn together. I get motivated to learn more, and feel thankful that they enjoy what they read. And then i share more. It’s all a very good cycle.
It’s no longer about who beats who in traffic and followers and who gets the bigger client or be invited to more events. It is about sharing what you believe and finding resonance. Even if it means you need a stethoscope lol.
Even if one day nobody reads this blog anymore, i would still continue writing here (or type, whatever it is. Who knows we evolved from writing to typing to tapping to one day maybe raising an eyebrow or telepathically speaking into the air??). There will always be someone who reads this blog. Me.
After all, that was how it all started. The first time i ever wrote for myself was in 1993. The first time. I was given a diary (brown cover, with an attached bookmark and just boring lines and dates), and i lay a pencil on the page of that day’s date.
And i was then hooked. For 22 years and counting.
The first entry. December 27, 1993.
(Yes i was Chinese educated all my life. Pardon my shitty English.)
In summary, it was about the book i borrowed from school library and some classmate who scolded me si ba po and i scolded him back si ba gong and that my aunty made a purple dress for my cousin’s barbie doll and there was a TV show at night which title i forgot but involved black people and an empty bottle fallen from the sky.
I am forever thankful for the mean classmate. If not for him i may never have become a blogger. Thank you, 死八公.
Anyway, i had to look through my old diaries (lots and lotssssss of them) to find the first ever entry i wrote. And then i ended up spending a good few hours laughing at my own jokes lolol. Apparently i was quite funny since i was a child. And racist. My apology for calling 历苏 a 黑人.
Anyway after that epic 1993 entry (Entry? Ancient blog post? lolol), this was what i wrote, on 27th December, 2013, exactly 20 years later.
My trip to Hakone to give thanks to the baby tree, 3 days after i announced my pregnancy and my 2nd wedding anniversary.
Funny how things turn out, right?
That is why, i will keep writing this blog, and view it 20 years later at night lying on a customized cloud bed (mentaiko-flavored and a specially engineered dream for that night) after Junya’s graduation ceremony, reading this entry from my contact lens.
So yea. Thank you, me in 1993.
And as usual, i would like to thank all 7 of you who are still reading here and who genuinely share my happiness and feel good about it.
Lastly, the standard blogniversary questions every year!
1. When did you start becoming a reader of this blog?
2. Which is your favorite blog post(s)?
3. What would you like to see more this blog?
Thanks again, this year.