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Junya turns 2 today!
In last month’s update, I was writing that Junya was going to be a brother in a few days time. Actually he became a brother on that day itself.
On the day Junya turned 23 months old, his sister was born. Which means as he turns two today, his sister is turning 1 month old. It’s like everything is fated.
A lot of readers asked how I am going to do the monthly update now since there are two kids. Actually I didn’t even know I would still continue to do theis, considering how I don’t even have the time to go for a proper shower now, but I would try and love to do so for as long as I can. So I have decided to combine everything in one post. 🙂
(No longer can be referred to “baby” since there’s another baby now haha)
(Also read 1st month , 2nd month , 3rd month , 4th month , 5th month , 6th month , 7th month, 8th month, 9th month , 10th month , 11th month , 12th month , 13th month , 14th month , 15th month , 16th month , 17th month , 18th months , 19th month , 20th month ,21st month and 22nd month and 23rd month here.)
One of the last few moments Junya remained the only child and had all the love from his mother.
I was told that all mother feels the same way just right before they are about to give birth to the second child: they feel incredibly sad. I was sad too. Actually even typing this makes me feel sad and teary. He was all that I loved and I could give my 100% undivided love to him. And everything was about to change forever. Isn’t this crazy? It should be double the joy but I was grieving.
Will I be able to balance my love equally for both children? Can I up my love capacity to 200% so I can still give 100% to each of them?
Junya had not a single clue what was gonna happen. He was happily exploring the hospital ward. I hugged him all I could, assured him that everything was going to be fine and he will be loved just the same, now and forever.
Becoming a brother
And then he became a brother.
Toddler and newborn.
Junya was barely two years old, he had no idea what being a brother is like. He had no idea what a sister is like.
He used to lie on my tummy and kiss “baby Sakura”, and now it has suddenly turned into a real, red-face, shrieking little human…
Most of the time he is neutral and friendly towards baby sister, he does not show zealous excitement nor is he hostile towards her. He is curious and sometimes he would touch, pat and sniff her. But in his heart he must have been confused as hell.
What is happening?! Who is this tiny real doll doing in our house? Why is she sleeping on our bed???
I don’t know how other families can have a two year old toddler who is super loving towards a new baby in the family with zero jealousy.
Although Junya does not/cannot express his feelings out loud, he has changed a lot in his behavior recently, and it is probably how he is handling the stress with the sudden change in our family.
For one, he binges and goes on food strike alternatively.
When baby Sakura was first brought home, he ate and snacked all day long. His favorite is peanut butter banana toast. He asked for peanut butter toast every. single. morning. And afternoon. And evening. And before bed.
And then he refused to eat anything.
It’s damn heart pain so see him emo like this ok. But later we found out that it was because he had mild fever and it made him feel worse.
And then he goes on sleep strike -_-. On most days he doesn’t take naps nowadays and goes to sleep by 6pm or 7pm. But when he does have an afternoon nap, he would stay awake till 11pm T______T.
Some of other strange things he did:
- Tells me “onaka suita. Tamago tabetai .” (I’m hungry. I want to eat egg.), and then goes to the fridge and takes out an egg. Like, raw egg.
- Says “Mama daiki!!” (Mama daisuki = I love mama) every 5 minutes. While it is super sweet, my heart broke a little because he must have been a little insecure inside. And wanted me to assure him that he is still loved. Of course I’d tell him back, “JunJun daisuki!!!” with a lot of exclamation marks.
- One day he told me, “I want put (pillow) belly button!“. I was confused and I then understood that he wanted to put the maternity pillow over his belly. I said, “okay, go ahead!“. And he was like “Mama put.” And then finally I realized that it was because I always put a small pillow (in Chinese it is called 压惊枕) over Sakura’s body to prevent her startling reflex, and he saw it. Ok baby. Such a subtle way to tell me he is jealous lol.
- Wakes up in the middle of the night and demands “I want mama bed!” and wants to be carried to our big bed, while usually he loves being in his own Big Brother bed just next to ours.
He just doesn’t want to be a Big Brother just yet. He wants to be mama’s baby. T___T. Okay, baby. Okay.
Sometimes he does show that he is serious about it, especially when Sakura cries for milk and I have to nurse her.
I was playing with Junya in his play area when Sakura woke up fussing. I looked over. He knew and demanded, “Mama sit. Mama cannot go baby Sakura. Popo (grandmother) go.” Ok, baby, okay. T___T
“This one cannot eat too much.” while looking at me with a serious frown.
“Now. now. NOW.” Oooookay. Somebody’s understood the concept of timing. In a bad way.
“I am so tired.”
“Don’t worry, be sad.”
What can I say?
I am going to sound like I am boasting, but this baby is the best baby ever. Although I’ve only so far produced two. And not so say Junya was not. But…
Sakura hardly ever cries, after she did for the first time ever in her life, freshly whisked out from my stomach to this whole new world. In fact she cries so little it actually makes me worried instead.
The first night in the hospital she did not even make any sound, I had to keep checking if she was still breathing >.<. After she came home, she just slept through and through, so much that I don’t even remember waking up in the middle of the night for feeding. @.@ (She sleeps next to me and I just nurse her in side lying position.)
Sometimes I feed her 11pm before we both go to sleep together, and then the next thing I know it was almost 6am. I probably feed her once some time in the middle of the night, which I totally don’t have any memory of.
So basically I get a whole night sleep without (remembering) waking up. Now I think I don’t care if a baby sleeps through the night or not, as long as the mother does, that’s what really counts as “sleeping through the night” lolol. Either she is a super good model baby, or being a second-time mother just makes you level-up instantly to superhuman.
It sounds like every new mother’s dream, to be able to get more than 2 hours of sleep at one stretch. But it was worrying because, newborns are not supposed to sleep this long! And I was constantly worrying, whether she was nursing enough? Should I wake her up for feeding? But at her 1-month check up her weight gain says fantastic, so I guess it’s all good!
For the entire month all she does was eat and sleep. And I can’t be more thankful and blessed to have such an easy first month.
BUUUUUT part of me was also fearing the worst. Newborns are always the easiest. And they always say the mother has it worst at the 2 or 3 month mark when full blown colic hits.What if… this is the the calm before the storm? *puts on raincoat, armor and shield*
However while she is the sweetest newborn, there was a lot more for me to stress over. The first month had not been as smooth sailing as I thought it would be.
Firstly her jaundice level was high enough for a home phototherapy treatment.
She was born with a few angle kisses (birth marks) on her face. After that she developed a horrible rash that is still going on until now. She also has a lip and tongue tie, on top of a blocked tear duct.
But at the check up the paed said I shouldn’t worry about it much. Junya didn’t have any of these problem. So he was too a perfect baby, but in another way.
Hopefully by the next update everything will be resolved!
One of the biggest questions I had for myself when I was pregnant with Sakura was…
Will I ever love both of them the same?
I didn’t believe a mother could love all the children the same. Surely she secretly favors one over another? I didn’t know. I mean, I would never have known, until I experience it myself. And I was afraid to find out.
What is my answer?
No. I don’t love them the same.
When I look at Sakura, my heart aches because she is so fragile, she cannot express herself in any way other than a tiny voice accompanied by a quivering chin and frantic flailing arms. I want to protect her with all my love. I want to give her everything so she feels secured and cared for.
And then I look at Junya. Sometimes it is easy to adore your angelic peaceful newborn more when your toddler is being a gremlin. But I see it as his way to win my love, to let me know that he cares and he needs to be cared for. And toddlers can talk, sometimes the funniest and most adorable thing ever. And the moment he tells you “Mama dai(su)ki”, you just want to plant kisses all over and give all 100% of your heart to him.
And when I look at the both of them…
I just melt away in heaven.
So yes, I do love them all the same. 🙂
Over the past few years, many eyebrow embroidery services approached for sponsorship but I turned all of them down because…
Just like hair, brows are part of fashion, and there should be no permanent alteration done to it that stays for life. Even semi-permanent embroidery stays for years. But fashion changes all the time, and you won’t want a hair perm that for 5 years, no matter how good it looks. And brows are the same! I remember the trends went from the HK female artist super defined arched brows to the Gyaru super bleached brows to the K-pop straight brows (which everyone is totally overdoing by the way, and which would have been such a fashion disaster 10 years ago). In between there were also the thick and soft brows, messy brows, dyed brows, etc. What’s next? Invisible brows, probably! (You’d never know!)
So instead of opting a convenient way out (yes it’s nice that you wake up with drawn brows for the rest of your life… or not), I would prefer to invest in really good brow tools and spend a good few minutes in the morning for an awesome set of brows, according to current trends or my mood ^^
So today it is all focus is on the brows!
Benefit’s latest brow collection:
Comes in the prettiest box too! Totally giving me all the “joy factor”! #KonMari #SparkJoy
It’s hard to imagine one needs that many kinds of products just for brows, but apparently you do!
Before that, do you have any brow problems?
I do. I have a broken brow -_-. My left brow is “broken” at the arch, because I did have an impromptu brow tattoo by a hair stylist many years ago, it was too archy and I regretted it so much I went an laser it off. Now I am left with a broken arch lol. #youngandstupid #lessonlearnt.
So my problems are:
- I need a very defined brow pencil that can fill in the gap.
- By the end of the day the gap will show again so I need a really lasting brow pencil.
And here’s how Benefit’s new brow make up items solve my problems. They have a great collection and here are my own personal favorite:
1. Precisely, My Brow Pencil
This ultra-fine pencil fills in the blank with natural, hair-like strokes. Pencils are still my favorite because it gives you a lot of control. I use this to cover the gaps of my uneven brows. Comes with a spoolie-brush on the other tip for softening and blending!
2. Goof Proof Brow Pencil
This one is a daily essential. It glides on so smoothly, giving you natural and soft brows in an instant!! I also love the angled tip that lets you fill in quickly with the wide tip and define at the same time with the pointed end. Needs almost no practice with this super easy to use brow pencil!
If trimming and defining your brows is akin that of a good hair cut, then the 3D-Browtones is the hair dye! This is the highlighting gel that gives your brows that 3D effect. It also softens harshly drawn brows!
4. Ready, Set, Brow!
Think of it like a styling product for your brows. This invisible shaping and setting gel holds brow hairs in place & locks on make up so brows don’t disappear even after a whole day out!
5. High Brow
If you fancy that glow, you can apply High Brow, the creamy brow highlighting pencil in linen pink just under your brows following the arch for brighter, younger looking eyes.
Before and after:
The new Benefit Brow Collection will be available on Sephora.my and Sephora Retail stores from 23 June onwards. Stay tuned and log on to:
Our last trip to Hakone before baby Sakura was born!
As usual we rented a car and went on a road trip with our typical itinerary: Ebina rest area for breakfast, Hakone to thank the tree god, and Gotenba for shopping and sushi. Haha super predictable!
First time trying the famous Ebina Melon Pan!
Melon Pan is basically the Japanese Roti Boy lol. There’s no melon in it! It’s just that the crust makes it look vaguely like a melon hence the name.
It’s so popular it even has its own Gotochi Kitty!
If you ever pass by Ebina, be sure to try the Karaage vendor outside! It’s selling all sorts of sinful fried stuff like fried chicken skin, fried chicken and fried nankotsu + sakura ebi. Unhealthy I know but sooooo addictive T_T.
JunJun ate healthier snack though, his favorite bolo.
Arrived at Hakone! Our usual praying ritual at different shrines.
Junya mesmerized at papa’s wishing.
We are back, magic tree.
Bringing JunJun back here the second time, and bringing Sakura in my tummy to give our thanks once again.
I actually wished for a healthy baby girl the previous time I came, so looks like we will be back again, soooon.
JunJun tried to communicate with the tree again. (He did 1.5 years ago)
#Ootd shot lol
1.5 years ago:
This is so crazy! Next time we’d be back with TWO babies!!
Stopped by a rest area where the danna took a short nap from all the driving. Me and JunJun went and pat a cat.
Apparently she is the manager of a shop there haha.
Posted the same-ish pictures god knows how many times liao but… nobody can get sick of eating this!!! World best Aburi Engawa <3
And Sungoi~ Series sushi. Sakura ebi, shirasu, crab meat, uni and ikura.
Supreme Uni. But the one we had in Saga prefecture was still the best.
JunJun eating… a slice of lemon.
Here are the rest of our trip in Tokyo, random photos that didn’t fit into a separate post!
at NALU salon waiting for papa to finish his work.
I wonder why adults don’t get those red cheeks. We simple turn grey lolol.
Oh let mw try a selfie from this angle!
RinRin came to visit when I was grounded at home with a huge belly and crazy back pain.
Watching TV at night.
Sleeping on baby Sakura.
And good night, Tokyo.
See you again soon.
How coincidental. As I just published this post, the danna who is back in Japan for work now sent me this in the morning:
Thank you papa. Thank you, tree.
PS: He just told me now he’s going to Gotenba to eat world best Aburi Engawa T__T.
I have been staying home a lot since it is almost impossible for me to go out and run errands, except for sending Junya to school and picking him up.
Thanks to internet shopping these days, there’s almost nothing you can’t buy from just a click away!
Adding yet another to my bookmark, Shoppu is the fastest-growing e-commerce platform in Malaysia, and of course you will all be delighted to know that it focuses on best savings with sizzling sales and hot voucher codes.
There are many categories under Shoppu, including Health & Beauty, Mobile & Tablets, Home & Living, Home Appliances, Fashion & Accessories, Muslimah Wear, Toys, Kids & Babies, Consumer Electronics, and Travel & Luggage.
Today my shopping haul items are from the beauty category!
Shoppu has more than 40 active merchants which sells more than 5,000 products in the Health and Beauty category!
Here’s what I got from Shoppu Beauty:
I have bought from Natta Cosme before and they are a store that carries some of very unique brands that are not available in the typical beauty shops. I got a whole box of Klairs skin care, which is exclusively distributed by Natta Cosme.
Klairs’ products are using hypo-allergenic ingredient, which is suitable for people with even with sensitive skin. Here I have the Vitamin Drops, Illuminating Supple Blemish Cream, Rich Moist Foaming Cleanser and a Facial Toner.
I also got other make up and skin care products from Bloop and Chriszen.
Bloop is a cute girly make up brand with cute packaging!
Bloop duo lip stick, a lipstick and a lip gloss in one!
Bloop face foundation and blusher, with a mirror you can rotate as a small table mirror!
Bloop Germ Buster that everyone needs in their handbag.
Chriszen’s make up brush set that comes in a pretty pink cone pouch.
This is the first time I see a tube mask!! It is a very thin sheet mask soaked in a tube full of essences.
Other than beauty products, don’t forget to also check out Shoppu’s other merchants in different categories!
I also spent a lot of time shopping for toys 😀
You can also shop for gadgets online!
Free shipping plus Ezy Pay system, where you can split your payment into 24 months.
Lastly, don’t forget that you get up to RM50 off if you use these voucher codes!!! The promotion has been extended to 30th June!
Shop at Shoppu now!
Stealing some time to blog during the nap time of two babies!!
During our trip to Nagasaki earlier this March, we had one day free after our overnight stay in Huis Ten Bosch, so the danna asked if I wanted to visit Saga prefecture, which is about just half an hour drive away from Sasebo, where Huis Ten Bosch is located.
I was super excited and asked him, “what’s there to see in Saga???” and he was like, “Nothing.”
He only wanted to bring me there because he knew I wanted to check one more prefecture off my life mission (which is to visit ALL the prefectures in Japan).
I haven’t heard anything particularly interesting about Saga too, except for their beef. Saga beef is famous even in Malaysia! But I really appreciated the danna’s kind thoughts and looked forward to the road trip very much!
Breakfast: Ichigo Nama Cream Sandwich and Meiji milk from Famima.
Sigh. Have to wait half more year or more again for this.
Saga town from our car window!!
It’s just like Nagasaki, it’s a seaside town, but a lot a lot more kampung than Nagasaki city haha. We had no destination in mind whatsoever, just driving along and feeling the vibes of a new town.
The 24th Prefecture Conquered: SAGA.
But coming all the way, we knew we wanted to have a good lunch. A quick search online and we decided to go for seafood at Kawataro!
Other than beef, Saga prefecture is also famous for live squid. And if you remember my experience about the crying live squid from Nagasaki, it is actually a restaurant that serves Saga cuisine.
I’m not sure if this poster is meant to tease your appetite…
Live squid. As lively as it gets.
This is actually the first time I saw swimming live squid. Usually they were already on my plate.
Junya woke up from his nap.
Perfect Onsen Tamago that comes with our set meal.
Osuimono (clear soup)
The star is here!!!
Dunno la maybe some people thinks it is gross (or even cruel, but anyway it doesn’t move anymore), but the ones you eat at sushi shops that are pressed on top of rice is the same thing anyway XD.
I love it!!!!! It is amazing how different the texture is when eaten raw. Grilled ones are chewy and springy but the fresh sashimi has a creamy texture!
The danna decided to go all out with budget so we also ordered a whole box of fresh uni and it was the best freaking uni ever T_____T.
And by the way it was only 3,000 yen which is like RM100. In KL it would costs at least double. Now to think of it I totally regret not ordering another box T____T.
Ahhhhhh my uniiiiii
Ika Shyumai (Squid Siew Mai), another Saga specialty. This one is really addictive, with a dash of Yuzu Pepper on top.
The rest of the squid went through some deep frying
Super happy meal!!!
The final mission in Saga was to get my Gotochi Kitty cuz I pretty much gave up on sight seeing given no homework done whatsoever on Saga XD. Usually all these cute souvenirs are selling in gift shops at touristy places, so I asked danna what are the tourist spots in Saga, and he didn’t know. He tried asking the locals, and there were like… uh… here?
And then he tried to rephrase the question and asked if they know any souvenir shops around, and the locals very helpfully pointed him to places that sell souvenirs, such as this…
The danna then tried to google and called a couple of “gift shops” and asked if they sell Gotochi Kitty, and apparently the shop staff had never heard of Gotochi Kitty before XD.
Waiting with JunJun in the car while papa asked around.
So we left Saga prefecture and headed back to Nagasaki without any Gotochi Kitty. T_T I was disappointed, but I was more touched than sad that the danna took my Gotochi obsession so seriously.
Just when we were about to enter Nagasaki on the highway, the danna stopped by the rest area for a break.
JunJun with giant Matcha soft cream.
And drinking from the water fountain for the first time.
Found my Saga prefecture Gotochi Kitty. T______T.
Rest area souvenir shops are really still your best bet.
Baby Sakura has been home with me for more than a week now.
It feels like nothing has changed, but everything has changed. There’s one more tiny human in our house!!!
Yes I promise. 🙂
Here are some of the things I felt after I gave birth:
1. I didn’t expect the second surgery to cause so much pain.
The first one I had really minimal pain, and was walking about as usual the moment I was discharged from the hospital! But this time around, I had to be wheelchaired to the car because it was simply impossible to walk T___T. They discharged me because everything looked good. Once I could go to the toilet and passed gas I was allowed home. I really never thought that things like pee and fart can be soooo important in my life until the day I had my stomach cut out.
The first night was simply a nightmare. Pain killers didn’t seem like they are doing their job and I was in so much pain I could not even move. My uterus must have been so goddamn torn and worn out with all the cutting and stitching back together and now is painstakingly shrinking back to its normal size -___-. I couldn’t even find a position to sleep which did not make me want to just pass out T____T. I cried in pain at the edge of the bed and then realize I couldn’t even stand up and walk to get tissue to wipe my face so I cried more and was in a mess with tears and mucus all over my face -_- and I really felt very, very very pathetic like a 废人 (useless person) especially when TWO of your kids are crying at the same time and there was absolutely nothing you could do. T___T. It was really one of the worst feelings ever. I also had to take minutes to get into the least awkward nursing position for both me and Sakura.
And the first night as a family of four together was quite a havoc lol. #onecryallcry
But things got much better day by day!
2. I forgot how it felt like to be pregnant immediately.
I thought I was gonna miss having the baby in the belly, but I can’t even recall how it felt now!!! It’s soooo weird. I was having phantom baby movements though, with all the gas and whatever that’s going on inside.
One of the biggest difference I felt was, “OMG THIS IS HOW BREATHING FEELS LIKE?!”. Seriously, I thought I found a new ability to breathe. It felt sooooo good, and I realized how I had’t been breathing normally for months with the baby stuck on my ribcage!
3. Losing pregnancy weight.
Huh, what pregnancy weight.
LOLOL. Qiu said I really 欠扁, that if I say this out loud publicly I would probably get punched on the street lolol. But really one. This time around my weight loss was fast and furious. By the time I managed to walk to the weighing scale and whipped out the phone for a selfie, there was almost none of the pregnancy evidence left except for my wound scar.
If this is what pregnancy is like (minus all the pain) all the time I will happily make babies as often as I can.
4. WHY AM I SO HOT?!
Sorry I don’t mean my body (although I’d like it to be.). I not so buay paiseh. Eh sorry again I really mean my body. As in hot like, sweating non-stop sitting in full blast aircon room?!? Does any newly delivered mommy feel the same?? I know during pregnancy you will feel extra warm but now I am like, JUST ICE ME!!!!
I really really don’t understand how can any new mommy do confinement with NO aircon and NO fan on AND have to wear long sleeve and long pants and wear socks??!?? How did anyone survive Malaysian weather like that? Please tell me.
Anyway some family picture update!!
Papa sunbathing Sakura.
Actually they really have same sleeping face hahaha.
Sakura’s naming book.
Mama and baby girl <3
Although with just 160 grams difference, she feels sooooo much smaller than when Junya was first born.
Qiu came all the way from SG just to visit!!! Really 委屈 her because shortly after she touched down KL she already met a crazy taxi driver who alternated every few minutes between saying he knows exactly where my place is AND asking her where exactly is my place. (?!?) I then told her to just download Waze and show the driver and it took foreverrrrrrrr to download the app (I forgot Singaporeans don’t need Waze!!).
So apologize to her multiple times on behalf of the taxi driver and internet speed in this country. And then never mind. Her accommodation in KL turned out to be freaking haunted what the shit. I don’t think she will ever come visit me anymore given all these experiences lolol.
Out the house for the first time!! Sending big brother to school and bringing Sakura for her jaundice review.
This is what my freedom would be like from now on. Sandwiched between two kids with very limited space to move about lol.
And also the same nursing wear every day for the rest of the year.
And then… the moment you realize that if you are alone, your life is over when this happens:
Two sleeping babies.
Can any mother enlighten me on how you handle this situation alone if there isn’t a stroller and a baby carrier in the car???
DIY Confinement with Daveleen
So the first time around I did zero “confinement” with Junya, except for the confinement home care package with Daveleen. So this time around, I have decided to do the same because it worked out perfectly for me!
I feel really lucky that in our modern generation, “confinement” is made so much more convenient and easy. Daveleen has everything in a packet. Moon’s products are safe to consume, easy to use, hassle-free, beneficial for women and most of all is breastfeeding friendly.
They say that this crucial 30 days is all a woman has to maximize her recovery from a child birth, so here’s something you can’t miss to complete your confinement, with 4 stages including Inner Cleanse, Recondition, Enhancement and Energize. All you have to do is pour the sachet in a cup and add water!
Daveleen’s 30 days postnatal herbal soup that you saw in the first picture is made with quality natural herbs and processed by advanced manufacturing techniques all well-packed and sealed. All you need to do is boil the soup packet with chicken or pork and some vegetables if you like! There are 5 different flavors and each soup packet has different benefits.
Dr.Peiling’s postnatal guide book “Falling in love with Confinement” is very helpful tool especially for first time mamas! She is very modern and doesn’t believe in many confinement myths and taboos so her book is written in health and nutritional point of view. There are also many postnatal tips and meal recipes, even a Japanese one! Follow her Facebook Page for more info!
Some of other useful products from Daveleen that will make your daily life much easier in the first month, especially if you are doing a nannyless confinement (it is totally possible!).