This is my #foreveralone face.

Wa i look cute even #foreveralone wtf thx dumbi’s PS skill!

It’s Valentine’s and i know a lot of people want to take heart, but i think it is okay to be #foreveralone la.

Plus, for people who are #foreveralone out there, we always can haz…

#foreveraloentogether.

Cuz i didn’t know what else to call it wtf.

Some people call it Micro Genius (really? is that a term used to cheat our parents into letting us play all night long?). The official name i think is NES (Nintendo Entertainment System wtf how boring). Then the Japanese call it Famicon (family computer, means the whole family including parents also should play together with us wtf).

I call it ditditgei wtf. If anyone of you here call it ditditgei too, you know i know everyone knows how old we are FOL. Clue: NES/MicroGenius/Famicon/Ditditgei is exactly how old i am FML. read more

So, relationship is like this.

When you’re in it, of course then everything looks perfect in the beginning.

Then piece by piece it starts to fall apart, and you are wondering why you can’t fix it by pulling and putting it back altogether.

It is not until you step out of the picture and walk away (by away i mean farrrrrrrrrrrrr away, so far so you need a pair of binoculars wtf), turn back and with horrible clarity, behold before you the magnificent mess you have built.

(Got ghosts come out summore wtf)

When you look back, everything seems so far apart and you now know why you walked miles going nowhere in this maze of jigsaw. So many missing pieces that you know you will never find. read more

Today i was thinking, my life is kind of at a very pleasant balance right now. Except now that i started a new job, i wish i have more time to do something i used to take for granted but now is what seems like a luxury to me. Like spending hours reading a book at the speed of a retarded tortoise, or watch a funny drama series. Or sit down to blog properly. Like nao.

Then i started to think if there’s anything that i regret doing, or not doing in my life. And then i realized, that the best quality (if it is counted as one at all. i always feel slightly ashamed whenever i run a self-reflection upon all my recent doings. I think that i am below the average of “human niceness”. Being mean and jealous and self-centered and all. Just completely fail to qualify moral excellence.) of me is that i hardly ever look back and feel regretful of the actions i have taken or the decisions i have made. I just make them and no matter what the outcome is, good or bad, i just move on. read more

Guys i’m removing Cheeseroll after it expires on 15th July 2010. There will be no more Cheeseroll. For good.

But if you are interested in a paid review for your shop you can welcome. Just drop me a mail. Lately no work I NEED TO EAT!

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Lately i have been thinking a lot about living in another place. Place as in country. Maybe it is a sign of mild depression. People only think about moving when they experience grief, or hopelessness, or  are in an LDR, or want to start a new life.

I am perfectly fine with my life. It is just that i feel that i am getting too lazy in this place i called home. (But people are lazy at home, are they not?) And also things happening around me are making me faithless. It has got a lot to do with general safety in this place. Two of my friends got mugged in the middle of the night in PJ. Police stop me because they want bribe, not because they want to help me. We can’t drink from the tap because it’s dirty, etc. I get irritated by bad Malaysian attitude, bad driving skills (including my own. But if i go to another country i can just use their awesome public transport.), bad service in a restaurant, etc. No dogs allowed in most parks. Cannot find pork everywhere. Etc.  Bad food’s ratio is too high compared to good food. Etc. read more

At about 6pm, mom called to tell me that my uncle is very sick. He’s in the hospital now and in a coma. He probably doesn’t have much time left.

The first thing that was registered in my mind was, finally, it happened. I haven’t been in contact with this uncle for the longest time since i left home for studies. And he hasn’t been most healthy since ten years ago. But throughout these 10 years, i was secretly fearful of the thing that’s gonna happen one day, which is happening right now. read more

It is just so omfg cute max.

#1

And i has it. Just a month ago i was lamenting how regretful i was for not buying them in Disney Sea. (the post here).

So how come nao i can has Duffy!!!!!!

Ok. It is liddis.

So i regretted not buying right. Then this really awesome reader Veron, who has a heart the size of, i dunno, a blue whale or something (the largest mammal ma), offered to help me get my Duffy cuz she was going to Disney Sea!!!

Of course then i said yes! But the reason i didn’t blog about it was because i wanted to get it for TK’s birthday. read more

TK and I broke up 3 months ago.

It’s been quite a long time, and I never thought it necessary to like, write a blazing ad about it mostly because I felt very protective towards our relationship. (If i cannot find someone in another 9 months or so like Keju, i might consider paying Nuffnang to put up banners for me. Or Keju and i can advertise for each other. Or date each other, though highly unlikely.) And i lazy to explain the story which is longer than a carton of cutie compact rolls.

A lot of people have guessed, because I never blog about him anymore. But a lot of people have not a clue. Every now and then people asked me “when are you going to Japan to visit him again?” and I would force a brave bitter smile and say, “we broke up awhile ago”, feeling a poignant stab in my heart. read more

FML.

Today i cried because i screwed up the chicken mom brought for me. I dunno. I just pan fried it with yakiniku sauce and even pandai pandai sprinkled some rosemary onto it. And it tasted atrocious. Screw Kenko Diet Plum. The best diet is to eat my cooking everyday.

And then i realized how useless i am. I can’t even cook a bloody chicken thigh (yea still got some blood coming out).  I disposed the body and washed the dishes while crying.

Things i brought back.

Japanese curry (amaguchi), Japanese curry (chukara), Japanese curry (karaguchi), Beef Hayashi and Delhi curry. read more

written July 6th, 2009

what i said about how things decide to take a drastic turn just when you expect them to head the way you want them to.

i almost booked a flight back to KL. that was what happened. (edit: i actually booked  a flight home. That was what actually happened.)

it was like Jenga. you build it up just so it could fall apart.

you pull one out. i pull one out. you pull another one out. and i pull another one out. until it is full of holes all over.

so you pull one out safely and then feel relieved to leave the shit up to everyone else to screw it up, it goes one big round and comes back to you. now it is your turn to screw it all up. read more

Jan: Japan
Feb: Shanghai
Mar: Taipei
Apr: Perth, Makassar
May: Bali
June: United Kingdom
July: Japan
Aug: China (maybe, sponsored trip.)
Sep: ?
Oct: ?
Nov: ?
Dec: ?

What i realized so far, is that, as a human, we need a break from everything. Including a break from a break.

That is it. Holiyear has been a major success so far. Somehow everything just happened, i didn’t even plan them on purpose. They came one after another.

And then everything started falling apart. I felt like a major fail. I took too long a break. Now I need a break from my holiyear. read more

Supposed to only come back on 21st July but decided to changed my flight very last minute. That’s 2 weeks earlier than my scheduled return.

Don’t ask.

Anyway, had been flying budget airlines all the while and this was my first MAS flight in a very long time, and was completely overwhelmed. I forgot how luxurious it could be.

I was like OMG THEY ACTUALLY GIVE PILLOWS! OMG BLANKIES. OMG FREE FOOD. OMFG YOU CAN ACTUALLY ASK FOR WATER WHEN YOU ARE THIRSTY WHAT TURF.

After flying low-cost airlines for such a long time, i realized how much effort normal airlines have put in to make their passengers feel great. Not to mention to compare with budget airlines. And i was very touched! And i felt very very bad about not finishing the food (it was nice, but i was just not that hungry). I mean, it was such a waste! And it was for sure not easy to prepare all these things. And the maintanence and stuff. I wonder if they actually make much profit at all. Flight wasn’t even half full when i flew to Kansai. read more